Sunday, June 6, 2010

What Am I Afraid Of?


So last night before i went to bed i was watching Harlem Nights, forgetting that tomorrow would be sunday (Which is today). So i turned my TV off but left my receiver on and i woke up to the sound of a screaming pastor over every speaker in my room. Mind you i have speakers everywhere in my ceiling walls all over. So i began tweeting about it in a playful manner. I came to realize as i was answering back some of my followers via twitter i soon thought to myself its been like 3/4 years since i've been to church. Someone asked "Bow wow why has it been so long" for some reason the times i gone to church i feel out of place. like its not for me. (which it should be for me) I was wondering if anyone else ever felt that way? Over my life people always tell us what we need or what we should be doing with our life. Church and religion is something that can't be forced onto someone. My philosophy is this: I don't want to practice the word and still be doing the wrong. I don't want to go thinking "Well because i do bad i can always just go here for comfort, pray and my bad is cleared. Now i can go back doing wrong and just keep going back for prayer" I don't want to feel like i'm mis using the church or the lord for the sake of my bad ways. Yes i believe in god, yes i pray, yes i talk to him. At the end of the day it lies between you and him. Your relationship with the lord is between yall. My mother goes to church constantly and always tries to bring me but i tell her "Mom i'm not ready yet" But she says "Boy what you mean you not ready, what if its too late"? i say "Man you right".I just feel that God will tell me cause he's the one i talk to. (Am i wrong for that? ) Why is it that id rather play xbox or hang out with my homies or play ball instead of going to church? Have i not yet realized the importance? No! i know the importance, i'm just scared. A lil nervous thats all. I think all first timers are a lil nervous thats a normal feeling. People may ask "Why are you scared of the church"? Maybe its i'm afraid of change. self change that is. Which is normal because you have been a certain way or lived a certain way your whole life that you might not know how to adapt to the new you. Will i ever attend? of course i will. I just can't force it. When that day comes, ill be there. Im still working on becoming a better man, and once i grow up and leave the B.S. alone ill be ready for that next chapter of my life. As of now i continue to pray speak to him (GOD) and live 1 second 1 minute of my life at a time. God Bless you all. Love all yall.

Ya boy
BOWEEZY

171 comments:

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Hardley Davidson said...

i used to feel the same way when i went to a church, i guess its not for everyone, for i believe you dont have to go to church to have true faith, i mean there are many religions. i believe as long as you stay true to god period ans pray for your blessings everything should be cool

aeneas "hardley davidson" middleton
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TerisaSimpson said...

It's not a big deal if you don't go. Well to the people who are in church every saturday, wednesday and sunday..it may be a big deal but from a girl who feels 80% of the same way...i feel as long as we know our relationship with God, outside people shouldn't judge. lol thats basically it. no pressure, no rush.

By God Via LPTrax said...

God Will Let You Know What's Good!

ravinandrews28 said...

I understand where you are coming from...God accepts you as you are, you are the one that has to know that God loves you, and he doesn't look at the bad side of you he looks at the good. The reason people have trouble is because of church people have so many opinions of people, and they judge. But you shouldn't feel afraid. Keep praying about it

jmack said...

i totally agree with you. i feel eactly the same way

ms lawery said...

Shad, that's a wonderful article you just did, Don't worry about going to church. If you want to go to church it's up to you. I feel the same way you feel. Going to church is not going to get you saved. ok. As long as you pray, fast, have a wonderful close relationship with our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ that's what get you saved.

purely_perfect said...

going to church does't necessarily make you a better person. As long as you maintain a personal relationship with God thats all that matters. Much love. @coleteele

PeekaBoo Myrbråten said...

Can not help on the church tang.. I dont go myself.. but I think as long as your happy, and do your thing.. everything is good. :)

Tiffany said...

I don't go to church as often as I should but I understand my faith and practice my beliefs. Just because you go to church doesn't mean your saved. So I don't really think it's a problem. And when u were talkin about the screaming paster I really don't like going to churches like that I jus think it's 2 much going on. You can get ur point across without yelling screaming and jumping around. The church that my family goes to is non denominational and they don't keep u their alllllllll day which is a plus.

:) said...

you just need to follow your heart,nothing and no one can forced you to do this and that to go here and there,it's all depend on you :) I love you :)

Jazze said...

No you're not a lone, I feel this way too, but reading your blog made me realize that If I asked God for his help, that I would be able to change and become more like the child that he created me to be. To stop worrying about what others thought of me and to stop being afraid. No it won't happen over night all great things take time, but I do believe that it's very possible. So as far as you feeling like you don't belong there, don't feel bad about it, because believe you me you're probably better than some of the people in church. Going to church doesn't automatically make you a christian, most people are just hypocrites.Just take your time and continue to build your relationship with the God, put him first and everything will fall in place.

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ms lawery said...

I used to be a active church going person, i had bad experience when i was at church. As i deeply read the bible. I don't need church to have a relationship with God. The Church is in you. Let me tell how i stop going to these churches, I read the whole book of Revelation. So if you have your spare time, Read the whole book of Revelation also

Jerrel said...

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I enjoyed reading this. For me, not only is going to church a problem, but accepting a religion as a whole. I'm not an atheist, nor am I saying that I don't believe... I just don't know WHAT to believe. I feel like, when we are born, we are born into whatever religion our family practices and are never given a choice. As we get older, we become aware of the other religions that exists, and if you're like me, develop questions such as "what makes my religion the right one?" "or why is that one different than mine?"

You see.. there are so many beliefs, so many perceptions of the world and God, I just can't seem to put my focus on one and go to Church.

I feel like faith varies per individual, and if you stick true to it and as long as it promotes good character and morals, it matters not if you go to church or "praise the lord" just believe...

Dija said...

you dont have to go to church to have a constant and active relationship with God. God knows where you heart is whether your in his house or not :). I look at it this way religion is "man made"...but spirituality is "you made "

DeeDee said...

understand where your coming from, don't be scared to go church!
The Lord is there to welcome you with open arms.

Maybe you should start watching televised sermons more often so that one day you'll be ready to go back to church.
Because like your mum said one day it might be too late...

Keep up the good work, Keep praying and have faith
God Bless
x

Mercedes said...

every church may not be for u and once u find the rite church home u will know. i sometimes feel that some people go to church for the wrong reasons, church is suppose to be a place where u can fellowship with other christians and help each other in this life while going on this christian journey. you should not go to church just becuz u are forced to or becuz its what u feel it will look good for show becuz people in church and that are so holy may not end up in heaven. u should go to church becuz u want to and have it in ur heart sincerly becuz u want to learn more and grow spiritually as well as share ur testimony with others. but i think just becuz we find ourselves doing wrong is not an excuse not to go to church becuz no one is perfect everyone will mess up sometimes but u just should know in ur heart that u are a sinner and that u make mistakes no one can judge u

Mecole*MeMe* said...

me and my mom havent been to church in years.. we actually never been regulars. the only time we would go is if someone invited us, and my mom would feel oblagated(sp) to go. and when we went, i would feel all out of place because i was either just sittin there or standin there not knownin the words n crap lol...i believe in god too, i pray n all of that. but church is just not for everyone. and i know that church isnt for my ma n i and it may not be for u either... =/

alma said...

So true, love the way u see things! You're being a man by respecting him n not going just because! As long as u have a relationship wit him is all tht matters! Ur not going n sinning afterwards like all other people!

MsZenobia said...

I also believe religion is not something that should be imposed on anyone, and when you do believe in something, you need not explain to anyone why because thats your faith whether or not it is logical. I go to church about once every 6 wks but only because i feel something in me. So go when you are ready! (you can always read the bible on your own when you feel the need)

bianca said...

You don't need to go to church to prove you believe in god. If you know you do that's all that matters. just cause one person goes to church doesn't mean they're better than another. Once your ready you'll go but if you go when ur not ready. I'm doubt it will do any good. You shouldn't have to be forced. When you feel your ready , go. Even if it takes another year or so.

ms lawery said...

go to the library of course take Ant with you. Go to the Religion Section get books, do deep research also watch the history channel. You get goo real deep with this pesonal relationship with God. I hope this helps. Thanks for sharing. Much Luv Ms Lawyes aka @midwestluvsbow

twix said...

Welll here it goes ... my opinion. ( dont get offended to start off .. ask yourself why you are truly afraid, is it cause you feel that if you gain the knowledge of the word and it is not inputted in your daily values that you will suddenly feel guilty realizing how far you truly are from the lord? And i often ask myself.. is a temple, church, holy household , is that what makes you a believer? in my opinion.. heck no.. cause i can be in church not listening to a d*** word and in lust or what no.. just an EXamp. I believe your right Shad, your relationship lies between you and the Lord. But my greatest advice is be real with yourself! Know your relationship. Dont say you are a believer because it IS the right thing to do. Say it because its TRUE and it feels right. So what Church is not your thang. its not mine either. Try this.. and take it at your own pace. Keep a bible under your pillow.. And ever sunday... read a page.. not even a chapter.. just a page.. and you dont have to intake everything.. just read... and slowly .. it will start to feel more right. or maybe you will get a better understanding. this religion thing is not a race .. its not who knows the Lord first will be the most rewarded.. its who TRULY believe the the lord will enter his kingdom. So take you time. Trice

chelsea said...

You can't grow and become that better man without God so stay up in prayer. It's really not about when you're ready, it's when God is ready ... HE will put something on you and in you that you won't be able to fight. There are many people in church that aren't perfect or doing right so no need to be scared. God is already showing favor on you because despite who you are and what you do HE continues to bless you and your career. I'm not perfect by far, nor there every Sunday but I know the difference when in the presence of the Lord. Continue to Be Blessed, I will go to church with you if you need an friend to help you make that step.

brandon said...

I feel the same way ya digg I ain't been 2 church in a min. But if u believe in god it shouldn't matter if u go or not its up 2 you nigga.

Follow me..... @NewOrleansGG

Jacob said...

it is very common for one to "feel out of place" at church, and there are alot of people the "backslide" or "leave" churches because of said reason. I know how it feels to have your mom say you need to go to church, because my mom said the same thing she never made me go but she always put it in my head that i need to. Church is a place to make your life better to get closer to God to repent and wash all of your sins away, and yes we are going to mess up because its in MAN's nature to do so. NO ONE is perfect you can go to church and see people that act holy jumping around and such but they do things on the weekend that aren't "christian like" the whole thing isn't that we dont sin (because we do and so does everyone else) but the fact that we try not to with a sincere heart. I thought the same thing like i needed to better myself in order to get closer to Christ, but you can't better yourself you need to give your all to Christ in order for him to heal you and make you a better person. Just remember that god loves you and that there is no sin big enough for him to hate you.

God Bless

MsMossForLife said...

Theirs nothing to be worried or scared about ; bow wow you are amazing just do what makes you feel happy & just stay blessed..You are an amazing person & everyone knows that do whats best for you & what makes you comfortable and you will be fine, I have 100% confidence in you & faith because just by listening to your music & hearing you talk just lightens me up because you are such a great guy. The Lord is always going to be there to welcome you with open arms.
Because like your mom says one day it might be too late...
Keep up the good work, Keep praying and have faith & trust me you will be fine, i love you so much with all my heart & support given
God Bless
@karahbrown

Fâris said...

I feel partly the same! My parents always tell me to do more about my faith..pray more etc..But I feel I am not ready to do it! Just like you I play games, hangout with friends and do all 'worldly' things. I do talk to God, I do pray sometimes, but not that much my parents would like me to do. They know they can't force me cuz' that ain't good. But I can tell by the look in their eyes they would like to see me do better.. But menn we still young tho! we hopefully got our whole lives still in front of us and when we get older we realize there is more than this world, so we grow deeper into our faith and practice it more. No need to worry men! It needs a lil' bit time and I believe that God knows ur struggle!!

Peace!
@refreshhh

titotodu91 said...

I'm never going to church, I've been thinking but I'm a bit scared. I believe in God and I say that the mere fact that I believe is enough for me.

Marie said...

Oh this is just CRAZY! It's ridiculous how much of me is written in this blog! Obviously, you are NOT alone in feeling the way you do. I haven't been to church since I was 17 and I'm 23 now! People can call me a heathen all they want, but I'm not the one doing a world of bad things and then going to church on sunday like nothing ever happened, as if they're just the best christian that does no harm. I think I was a bit turned off the last time I went because they were saying that the money raised from the previous week ($12,000 or something) wasn't enough! I just felt like, EXCUSE ME!? Plus, I was always bored and uncomfortable. I'm not really religious, I'd describe myself as more of a spirtiual person. I do believe, have faith and pray, but church just is NOT for me! It doesn't seem like you're scared, you just seem to be uncomfortable which is totally understandable. You have a good head on your shoulders, you know what's going on. It's going to be ok. LOVE YOU

brandon said...

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Delaram said...

I don't really understand how u feel right now I'm Muslim nd I believe in god but I'm not religouse as in I don't understand why women have to wear a scarf because I'll never wear one nd I don't get what's so bad about eating bacon nd I'll eat watever I want to; iv never actually been to a mosque and to be honest I never really want to go it's like I do prayer nd give my own message and I do believe in god but I don't really believe in any religion; in my school there some really religouse girls that are Muslim and u should see the way they look at me they're always asking me why I don't wear a head scarf, nd iv been told dat I'm going to he'll because I eat bacon lol. I Kind of understand what you mean and maybe one day you'll be ready to go to church again :) nd it's not a big deal if u don't go xox

Regapolos said...

There's absolutely nothing wrong with self growth! The most important thing is u believe that there's a GOD! So eventually u will come around. Stay believing and have a blessed Sunday.:-) God bless!!!!

AbbiKakez said...

I understand the feeling of being scared or feeling out of place. Sometimes it can be the chemistry of the church the people or even how the pastor preaches. You may have to find a church that you feel comfortable in to fully remove those feelings. But in any event whether you go to an actual church or not if your personal relationship with God is strong and you have faith in him it doesn't matter if you worship him from your home just make sure you are giving him the same amount of time you give the other things you are passionate about. Be Blessed. -Abbi

lileishamusic said...

Aww Bow thats something to really think about.. its good that you pray but you should also get closer to him... but do what you think is best for you...

Tash said...

i went thru a similar situation. This quote helped me A LOT recently:

"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful." ~Alan Cohen

I read it mad times before it actually set in but you basically have to realize that we're only here on earth for a short time compared to the eternity that we'll face in the Hereafter. Everything you received is a gift from God, no matter how hard you feel you've worked for it.... all things are ONLY possible through him. And when this life is over, you will be judged according to your intentions and actions in your life... (Not saying that you have bad intentions or actions because I dont know u like that and im def not one to judge)... But a lot of times the nervousness comes from what others might think. The courage comes in realizing that no one else's thoughts will matter when you're standing alone on the Day of Judgement.... I don't meant to preach (sorry) but I just thought I'd share my thoughts on what you wrote because i had similar struggle.

Tia said...

Well Theres Definitely Nothing Wrong with you, my brother is the same way. Just doesn't feel right going. Church gives u word and it's a place to learn how to be right with God, and it's more of a fellowship type place. Most people see it as being religious and go, but it's the relationship with God they miss. I feel like if you read your bible try to do better ask him for forgiveness and thank him for your blessings then you don't need church. Your basically doing everything yourself they help you do there. It's not about you showing up every Sunday sitting in the front row with a new outfit on. It's about becoming closer with God and the same People badgering you about not going are the same people caught up in the hype and sacri-religous environment instead of recieveing the Word. Lol so don't feel bad at all. Your fine. But If you want to secure that relationship find a church that records their sermons on cd and cassette (A preacher that doesn't scream). You can then listen to them all the time. People forget Sunday isn't the only day to praise God, we should do it everyday. My moms a Minister and I haven't gone since Easter, not that I physically can't but cause I don't feel like it. So I listen to the sermons and read my bible and I feel better. If you want some sent to you I can send you a Lot that my pastor has done and he doesn't scream thank the Lord. Just let me know @TheReallMcCoy on Twitter and I can send u some. Anyways hope this helps and sorry for the long message lol

JDA{JoshuaDanielAndrews} said...

It sound like you not going to church because you do not wanna give up the things that contradict God. I remember talking to one of my friends, he told me he's not ready to go back to church because the sinful life is great. I tried to explain to him that those temporary pleasures will never be able to compete with what God have for his children, love,peace, joy. I just encourage to take your time and read the word (ephesians) yourself. I remember when I gave my life to Christ, the best move I ever made.

God Bless

Jackie Chanel said...

I feel you completley...I go to church just to be in the atmosphere... Half the time I don't even understand what the pastor is talking about... I go to church to connect with god not for the word and not for others...I feel like you never hVe to go to church and god will love you the same!!!....no one is perfect... And I know u have heard the church ones are the worst ones... Go to church when you're ready before this year I haven't been to church since I was a child....just follow your heart and as long as you have a relationship with god you're good!!

kimberly said...

I understand how u feel cause I'm kinda at that point in my life but just know that u don't have to feel bad about it cause GOD already know the decisions we are going to make even before we make them he gives us an opportunity to make different choices. Just keep talking to GOD and building a relationship with him cause in the end that's all that counts. But know that the church is in ur HEART and thats all that matters cause the building is for fellowship only. As long as ur trying ur best that's all that he aske for us to do. RESPECT

Tempestt said...

You need to read this book: Purpose Driven Life

http://www.purposedrivenlife.com/en-US/Home/home.htm

You only read a chapter a day & it's life changing.
Maybe the reason you run into the issues you have with women, loyalty, media and ect is because you have not accepted Christ fully. When you realize that it is only HIM that can change things not you but HIM then your life will turn around for the better. But yes it is hard to give up bad habits... and God will wait for you but you have to push a little harder and meet him halfway because His church is important to Him and we have to respect that... don't let temptation keep you away. He knows you are not perfect, he sees you at your very best and worse, you don't need to be saved to go to church and he know it won't change you overnight.... he just want's you there to praise him and give him thanks.... it's sorta like when you go to an awards show or a funeral... you are just paying your respect and giving your props

-Tempestt Storm
@tempesttstorm

.kruz! said...

I share the same philosophy anyways keep doing ur thing and wait for everything to fall into place.. God Bless... @kruzFX

Ebonee said...

Don't b scared Bow. The way that you feel is very common. A lot of people don't wanna b looked @ as a hypocrite bcuz they kno that they still have "imperfections" but @ the same time...no one said that the 1st day u go 2 church u have 2 join and forsake everything that you've come 2 kno and love over the years. Itz a process. You need 2 b around the word and fellowship w/ others 2 let it start sinkin in so that when the time comes, you really are ready 2 step up & b a better Christian (which in turn will also make u a better man). And since you even have the nerve 2 admit it and discuss it...maybe that time is closer than u realize. Good Luck

~Mz. EPiQ the Producer @MzEPiQbeatz

ProveRbz31tEn said...

God is always waiting for us to come back to Him..with open arms! We as humns tend to delay the return more than necessary. I tell people each day is a conscious decision...and a new day to get it right! Does God expect us to be perfect...hell naw, I'm 25 and I know I make Him laugh daily with my foolishness!!!! But each day is it my goal to follow His will more and more....definitely. the hype of the world is NOT where its at...easy for me to say cuz I'm not ballin' outta control like you! But..if He has blessed you at this age in your journey....MAN think of your journey when u start walking next to Him!!! You won't change over night...don't have to read and pray all day long....it starts with acknowledging that God is in control of your life. And should you be going to church, yes. Its to heal, fellowship with others, and get God into your system...past the point of us saying "yea I'm a christian"....whomp! That doesn't mean shyz to God...remember he looks at your actions...and forgives you (repeatedly) for those that aren't right. At some point in your journey, you start following and listening. Baby steps...read Rick Warren's Purpose Driven Life....good eye opener to what and how we are really supposed to be living. Believe me I've had my hayday, but walking with Him now...I know I am blessed and favored and wouldn't trade it for the world. Those in my circle are all growing in faith and receiving blessings in life, career, relationships, etc because of obedience. That's how I know I'm on track, when all my immediates can support me spiritually and I see our lives lining up with Gods purpose for us. Are we rich...hell yes! Ballin in love, faith, and good times! Just by you blogging this God is speaking...keep listening Bow wow! Holla at me for anything....even prayer (but I got u on that already!) ....gemenanyalia on twitter. Blessings!

Alexismom191 said...

I understand how u feel ... I think u feel that once u go to church u will have to commit to a life a 100% pure godly intent which is not so true we all make mistakes n God knows that we all r a work in progress by going you are acknowledging u will try to be the best person u can b. By going to church u will learn new ways of thinking n will make u grow as a person. @Alexismom191.

Brianna Christine - - x o said...

I actually feel the exact same way. I believe in God but I feel as if the church environment is a little overwhelming especially when your at a point in your life when you have not yet decided to live right ? I feel like I want to be able to be good for the Lord and show him that I can be better but I'm not ready to let go of my faulty ways ? I'm still young I still pray but does that give me the option of not exactly going and sitting in church and receiving the word from someone who knows it better than I. I feel as if i should be more informed at times but I know that I can turn to God whenever I need him, which is everyday but as for right now church is not something I am active about just yet. I agree completely that once I do grow up and leave all my b.s behind I too will be able to move on to the next chapter in my life also .

TAlston22 said...

Hey Bow,

Just want to start by thanking you for sharing how you really feel with us:-)) That's why we love you!! Because you are REAL!! It's the God in you and God's grace that has gotten you where you are. He is blessing you and also has a purpose for everyone of us. People who go to church are no better than those who don't. Like you said...it's between that person and God. I love reading your mother's tweets. Moms are amazing!! You have a praying Mother and that is priceless!! She has your back just like God does. Keep doing what you're doing...like you said...when you feel the time is right...you'll know. Just know...that we all fall short and we all have sin...don't let that stop you or make you feel any type of way about being in God's presence. You are a inspiration to sooooo many people and we love you!! We love you even more for being REAL!!! Love you Bow!!! God Bless!!!

Patience said...

What I heard in your words are that the world see you as Bow Wow and you want to be seen as Shad, sometime we are afraid to be different due to people not understanding. I see the maturity in you and these young people need to know that there is something better for them and that is God. See when people don't read the bible for themselves they are confused the Church biblically is you not bricks and mortor thats just a place for like minds to meet and fellowship. Let God lead you where He wants you not anyone else. I will pray for your continued growth as a man and your succes to lead the young to a better way.
Love Patience

adore said...

I feel you. Sometimes when we go to church its like we are facing God. Facing God is scary when in our minds we know what sins we have done and it seemed okay but when we facing God them sins we did ain't so coo no more. But as long as you and God have an understanding and you have a relationship with him is all that matters but know this bow God shows up in places that he wishes he is not comfortable being at but you are his son and u are his everything and he shows up for you because he knows u need him and no matter what he still loves u but someday u will have to make that step and show up for him...just something to think about.
Many blessings off to get ready for church =)

jaqii33 said...

bow you are not alone with that feeling! and your time will come. your young and living your life now!♥

licialuvmusic said...

I know exactly what your talking about. I feel the same way. It's not that I'm afraid or nervous, I just don't believe that someone has to go to church to have true faith. Not everyone in church is honest. And some people are just there because they've been told that not going is so wrong. But I believe that religion, especially Christian religion is falls in the line of personal perspective. People all go to church for different reasons. I believe in God and Jesus. I depend on them both. But preachers preach from their personal perspective of what religion says to them. So I don't always agree, but that doesn't make me less of a believer. Christian religion is very controversal, so I rather keep my personal beliefs to myself, then be told rather I'm right or wrong, because honestly, no one knows anything past what they believe to be true. I do pray and thank God for everything though.

jasmine said...

I woke up this morning thinking the same exact thing. I just can't connect when I'm in church maybe it is because I'm scared if what I'll have to change.

scc09 said...

Hey BowWow. I saw your tweets today and just read your blog, which gave me more understanding as to why you feel the way you do.

I myself do not really go to church, I too believe in God, I know I have received many blessings and am VERY thankful. My reasons include that I am living in a differenct city from the one I grew up in. And there are sooo many different churchs here, as for trying to find a new church home here. I go to services and at some point there is something that I don't like about it, or in someway the pastor makes me feel uncomfortable, so then I just keep looking... lately instead of driving all over town looking for churches, I watch programs on tv or online <--which I now like to do a lot :-) ...and I also have the goal to read through the whole bible this year.... but enough about me.
I agree that you can't be forced. I guess you do have to go at your own pace and comfort level. I also agree that you are not supposed to "live a certain way, go to church to ask your sins to be forgiven and then return to the same bad habbits" (so to speak.)I do think it is good that you recognize that. One day you will just have to make the decision [to go to church, and/or be a better Christian]...and don't look back. I think it is ok for you to be scared, and that is where you have to just "step out on faith" and trust that it will be alright. That is also where you may need to or want to lean on your Christian family for support.
As you do grow more spiritually you may see that certain things or even the way you used to think were just holding you back and blocking your blessings. You may see that you don't need some of the things you used to need... as you learn and grow you can help and encourage others.
anyway....I hope my comments were helpful
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have a great day! :-)

OliviaBk said...

You must know that God does nothing by chance! If today you feel strange when u think abt God, church... its not by chance. In this world there is a time for everything: There is a time to grow and a time for getting older. A time to be in ignorance and a time to realize, a time to turn away from God and a time to get closer to God. Jesus is dead for your sin, for your life! Pliz read it: Jean 3:16 You will understand a lot.I was in the same situation like u and it was a lot of things who make me aware abt God's love. Like u i felt strange to go at church etc... But things happend slowly and now i gave my life to Jesus! I mean im free! If your mother aske u to go to church with her, GO! God often uses people to take you to him! You think you're not ready, but God may be thinking the opposite! The impressions of men are not similar to that of God! You're afraid of change that God could do in your life, too before giving my life I was afraid of change but I am not rich like you, I'm not famous like you! But even when God changed my life he has made it better. You're a star, but God does not mind that, in fact you certainly do not miss anything in your life and this may be what you think (however I do not judge you:) but you have the Insurance die in peace as a reward with eternal life? Are you sure that thee life is saved? Think you get the paradise after your death? I thought I had a lot of things but no! That's what I was missing: the assurance of my salvation!

Im really happy to told you that and i thank the lord for your life and for all that questions on your mind! GOD IS ABLE. Jesus loves and died for ya! :) Peace

igotit4lesz said...

I used to go to church all the time since I was little. My whole family grew up in church, once I moved on my own I stopped going. And I always wanted to go back but haven't. I finally decided to go to church this past easter sunday but I couldn't go alone I had to brong some1 with me. But I promise after I went it was a wonderful feeling. I haven't gone back since but I have to take baby steps. All I'm saying is that it is hard to go back u dnt want to feel like a hypocrite but u have to remember God knows everything, he's not expecting u to change over night he knows we're human and not perfect. Just go no1s expecting u to change. Just go for u and ur relationship with God. @itzdanna

Colleen said...

Bow, "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are more powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant,gorgeous,talented,fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are meant to shine, as children do. We were born to manifest the glory of God within us.

OliviaBk said...

Forgive my spelling mistakes im french! Lol

MizzTreats said...

You have my take on religion and church. So I think it's okay not to go to church because you don't want to. People will eventually understand you shouldn't and can't force church on someone. It's a choice that shouldn't be taken lightly and like you said, when it's your time God will tell you. Trust, I've been to plenty of church's and never felt like they were for me and joined a few when I was growing up because my mom's wanted me to and all I saw in those church's was corruption and hypocrites. So the way I see it is that when God wants me to attend a church a friend will invite me and if I he approves I will attend cause that's a message he wants me to hear. Otherwise, I will remain spiritual and that's what you seem like you are Bow Wow. It's okay to be Spiritual and not Religious. In time you will make up your mind as to how you feel about religion, church, and spirituality.

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nade05 said...

I believe in god but haven't been to church for a long time and im just now a church kinda girl. Also i wana live my life how i want and not be told how im supposed to. I wana make mistakes otherwise how am i gana learn. God is a spirit and is with you everyday , every second/minutes with or without church.

A.Lynch said...

Honestly Bro, Like i said on twitter in my oppinion you just feel convicted (Meaning you know enough of what God expects of us as people to make you feel bad, i would say for the wrong that your doing or maybe just the lifestyle you have chosen to live). Any time your in church or in the presence of God for that matter, Those of us who do wrong and know that were doing wrong we fall under conviction. But like you said maybe your just not ready to change and thats were i agree with your mother cause at any second you could lose your life (God forbid) and you never got yourself right with God. So because you were affraid of what little change it might cause, it may cause you to be to late in getting your life in line with the word of God. But really it not all about the church, you dont have to go to church to have a relationship with God. You can have a relationship with God were ever you are. Because the church is just a building if God isnt there(Remember That). You can get your bible and study and get an understanding of what God wants for your life without even stepping inside a church because you already have a relationship with God and thats all that matters. So no matter what people say at the end of the day God knows your heart and your mindset. So with that being said be encouraged Bro and do the right thing get to know God for yourself if nothing else!

Fabulousityyy said...

I’ll KEEP IT SHORT & SWEET. I see where you are coming from, and I am not the one to judge. There can be a lot of distractions since you're a celebrity. All I advise is that you do not put Jesus on the back-burner, bc when the spotlight is gone he will still be there. Don’t let anyone force you to do anything, bc then your actions wouldn’t be sincere and genuine. I commend you on still having him in your life, & EVERYTHING happens for a reason. So God may be preparing you to be a better man, and giving you the strength to attend church. Continue to pray for guidance, but I know you'll love the fellowship in the house of the Lord. God Bless & ill pray for you :)

Princess Black said...

I know what you can this feeling. God is with nosco to all the moments. you can you tie not to frequentar the church, plus you talking, being thankful each minute of its life, being thankful for everything, the perfect day that you had and a beautiful start; of you to only have faith. it is good for having god in our minds, more and always good for going the time church enquando to search the word of god. I love you, dream that one day you can come to BRAZIL kisses

Tee said...

God will indeed let u know when it time to be in his house. I felt forced as a kid to go to church, we went almost everyday (choir rehearsal, usher board meetings, bible study, sundAy school) omg I hated it. I told myself when I became an adult I'm protesting church. I felt that I had been to church enough to last me a life time. So I did just that, when I became 18 I stop going! I still talked & prayed to God but wouldn't go to church...4 years later I felt my life was spinning out of control! I felt as if I was praying & talking to God & nothing was getting better. In my heart I knew that was God telling me to go to church. It was time for me to be in the house of the Lord! Was I scared? 2 death...do I go back to my older church & get the funny looks & whispers(girl where she been?)! Is it really true, God says come as u r(broken hearted, lost soul,& wearing whatever)? What r the church rules(hold the finger up to be excused, don't walk n while... what again...I forgot)? So many things were going through my head, but knew I had to get there! I started off slow! I made a vow to go every 1st Sunday no mater what! Hungover, tired, sick...I'm there! & it works for me...God sees my effort & that's what matter to me! So don't be forced go to church, God will summons u, u will be ready, & u'll be fine! On my way to church...have a blessed week!

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zainabou said...

U're not wrong for feelin dat way Shad. I'm muslim & evrytime I attempt to be a good muslim sumthin bad happens(not saying I'm wrong for being religious but its just weird) on da oda hand I love my religion I wouldn't rather be nothin else (I except wat ma parents ar & wat dey want me to be wit open arms). I don't know if u kn bt we as muslims ar suppose to do our prayers 5 times a day which everytime I attempt to do I get a bad news or sumthin. I'm 21 now n dis been goin on since I wz 18 bt eventhough I don't do da prayers 5 times I don't eat pork(I personally think is unhealthy & nasty nway) & I always pray at nite b4 I go to bed & also wen I wake up in da morning, u might be right shad I might not be fully ready yet maself. I believe in Allah(God) a %100 for which I always thank him and be greatfull to him for all of da things he have done for me. I don't think going to church every sundays or praying 5 times aday makes u a better person or a person of God bt instead da things u do(for ex. Helping da needy, respectin ur elders, admitting u ar wrong wen u ar & learnin frm ur mistakes, being greatful, being nonviolent & so on) makes u a better person & a man of God. Thank u so much Shad for openin up about dis it made me open up maself cus I neva eva told any1 about dis thanks again I'm greatful. Via @TheRealZBeauty

Zeyna said...

i really feel you on that, i'm muslim and i've been maybe only 3 times in my life to the mosque even though i'm so into my religion. but i don't want to go there feeling forced to do so, don't wanna feel like being hypocrite to God. so don't worry you have nothing to feel guilty about, we all are not perfect towards God and He knows it that's why the feelings in your heart will always remain more powerful than everything and more genuine. i just finished watching your recorded ustreams, i been watching them for 6 hours straight, believe it or not. and i just understood something about you that i want you to know. i used to like you for your music and acting but i got to admit, because of how you being mr i do it for the ladies you know, i ain't gonna front lol. today, with watching you just speak to us as you do, i felt happy within myself to see YOU happy, and see you sharing your maturity with us, your laugh and be so honest and true. so i understood that it's the true reason why i love you. i mean who takes that time to just sit there and talk to us? nobody do that no more. everybody is going crazy with their money and their fame but you don't. you don't. you seem to be so good in your life and i am so happy for you. i didn't know i could be so happy to see somebody i don't know' happiness. i'm glad to see your lifestyle didn't trick you. you're keeping it so simple and i swear to God that it made me the most happiest girl today. just to watch you smile genuinely to us !! i'm glad to see with my own eyes that you're doing good in your life, glad to understand that after all.. you are such a great person. my throat is tight right now cause i'm holding my tears, i'm writing to you from the bottom of my heart, and i don't have no reason to cry but you just made me happy. and while some people in our own life don't make us happy, you just cheer us up. at least you cheer ME up. so first i thank you for that. second, i hope that you never under estimate who you are. always be proud of yourself, always be sure that you are somebody great. not as bow wow, but as shad gregory moss, hope you know that you are an amazing person. we should have a shad moss in our life. all the ladies should marry a shad moss. all the fellas should have a shad moss as a bro. because you are that interesting and great. third thing, i don't know why i'm telling you all that.. you don't and will never know me, but i do know you, so it's my duty to tell you that we see you. we see you! we see who YOU ARE and nobody can make us blind, cause you speak your heart to us. please do not consider me as a fan, cause i am not, consider me as family. you're my brother because you show me love without me asking for it. i'm your sister because i want you to smile every single day of your life, and i hope you're feeling the love i'm trying to send you too.
we been on your side since you were 13. you probably have no friends who been that long in your life without betraying you. we never did. thank you for your love. you will always receive as you have given.

from the other side of the world, Zeyna.

ps: you better stay happy and show it so i can be too ;)

LondonBoulavardez said...

You shouldn't feel bad about it. I mean it would be a good thing for you to go to church, but if you and God have an understanding, and you're not lost from him then you are doing your part. You say you talk to him, you pray and the other things. I'm not going to lie, I myself have not been to church in only the Lord knows but like you, I still pray and talk to him and sometimes may even flip on the BET to have church in bed. It is nothing wrong with that, who really says that to be in good standings with God you have to be in his house? Nobody, no one knows the connection you have with God. By us not going to church, we could have a better connection with him then those who do sit in church screaming thank you Jesus but be nothing but hypocrites. So until you do feel that you are ready, keep doing what you're doing. God is not complaining or gone take anything good you got going on until he feels you two are losing connection.


Love.Kisses

sherrell said...

I FEEL WHERE YOU'RE COMIN FROM I'M GOIN THRU THE SAME FAZE I WANNA CHANGE BUT I'M NOT READY YOU CAN'T FORCE THE CHANGE CAUSE YOU WILL ONLY BE LYIN TO YOURSELF TRUST ME WHEN THE TIME COME YOU'LL KNOW WHEN YOUR READY IT'LL BE STARING YOU RIGHT IN THE FACE AND YOU CAN'T HIDE FROM THE TRUTH

Anete said...

Hey Bow, first, it was really good to read that stuff here, I really liked how you think about all that. I've been a christian my whole life, I just grew up like that. What I know is that even people who go to church can be wrong, if they don't have that deep relationship with God, you know, the moments at night before going to bed and so. But of course it's good to go to church, there are people to support you and the word to help you through the next day. So I think you could find a cool church and go see what's up there, if God wants you to do it, you can't go wrong with it! Bless ya!

andy said...

That's understanding you touched on a few key points, you can't force religion on simeone and you shouldn't live that lie as far as going to church and continue to live in vain Monday through Saturday but come Sunday morning you wanna give all mighty praises to the lord. It's a growing up and throwing away the b.s. before you open up that next chapter in your life. Having your own relationship with him (GOD) isn't going to church every Sunday church is just a place to fellowship with fam,friends and whowever pleases. When the time is right you'll know and continue to have your own relationship with the lord.

Misz_inDependent said...

Wow thats deep. I kinda feel like that too, but I'm not scared of going to church. To me personally, I feel that God already knows that you love him and you believe in him(if you do). And you don't have to go to church to prove that. He already knows whats in your heart. The way you feel about him and how you live your life is the most important thing to him. If you wanna get close to him, all you have to do is talk to him and pray. He’s always with you every step of the way. You don’t have to be surrounded by a lot of people for him to listen to you. There are a lot of people who go to church and for some reason they are still doing the wrong things in life. I’m not saying that there’s anything wrong with going to church, you just shouldn’t feel as if you have to. You should want a relationship with God.

Kory said...

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christine said...

I think definitely getting to know God is a personal decision. It cannot be forced. I remember I never missed a Sunday growing up in my parents house but once I went to college, I rarely attended church. I was just happy to finally be able to make my own decision whether to go or not. But what I noticed is that it definitely changed my relationship with God. I only really called on him when I went through hardship, which is not good. Now that I graduated I realized how important church is to me. I like it because I feel welcomed at my church, its a love there that you cannot feel at a club, which was where I'd be at every weekend. Also I like the spiritual guidance my bishop offers me, especially when I have questions that I cannot always understand or get from just reading a Bible by myself. But finding a good church home is very hard, and no church is going to be totally perfect. But as far as becoming the man you want to be, you have to want to change. Its not going to be easy at all, especially in your position. Just pray about it. However also remember no one knows the day or hour that Jesus will return; could be today tomorrow 100 years from now, it is uncertain. I read revelations and it scares me how much i see it coming to fruition everyday I watch the news so I know I'm definitely taking a closer look at myself.

Valencia said...

I totally understand where you're coming from because I use to feel the same way when I went to church. I always felt like I didn't belong or something. At that time it was to type of church I was going to that had me feeling uncomfortable. I was raised in a Southern Baptist Church and if you have ever been to one you know what Im talking about. So up until April of this year I hadn't been to church since maybe 2001 or 2002. But in April I was dating someone who went to church on a regular basis and he had been invited to attend a church down where I live so he invited me. I went and really enjoyed the church and the Pastor was preaching on it being "Harvest Time". And that really got me because he was basically talking bout God using other people as vessels to get people into church and that made since to me because a month later me and they gut broke up and I still attend the church. But I dont attend like I should because I am afraid of being saved because I know how easy it is to go back to the old ways. But the Pastor of the church is preaching on how just as we are provided with parents when we are born when we are saved God will provide us with spritual parents to help us on our walk with God. So I say to you that it might not be the church you are afraid of but more so of being left alone to walk with God once you change your life. And just by me responding to your blog has help me deal with my fear. Because they say once you walk on and in faith with God all the other areas of your life fall into place as well.

Tracie said...

I totally understand your blog. I am a Christian who used to go to church EVERY Sunday, but in the last 6 months I've just chosen R&R over ritual. God is every where Chad...keep the lines of communication open with him & he will be with you whether you actually sense him or not. He created you NOONE knows you better than HE! When & if he's ready for you to come to church His spirit will lead you there...until then he knows your heart. Your mom is praying for you believe me and he hears a mother's prayers. When it's time you'll know. You don't have to force it. The bible says he ask above EVERYTHING that we love one another. Just walk in love...he will do the rest.

Nichole Denise said...

Hey Shad,

I undersand where you're coming from. The only difference with me is I don't go to church because some of the ppl there are hypocrites..they judge u because they hardly ever see you at church but on Saturday night they're right in the club with you doing the same thing you do. So I agree with you, you don't want it to be a place where u can just go be forgiven for your wrong doings and go back and do it all over again...its pointless.

I went to a christian high school and we had chapel every Wednesday that hour was about all I could take but I know that going to service helped me become a better person. I don't believe you have to go to church ever time the doors open because no matter what God knows your heart better than anyone else and that is a relationship between you and him. We are put on this eath. To please him and not the world...So if u feel like going go for you and not anyone else because if you do you aren't going to get everything that you can out of the message being taught.

Overall just keep your relationship with him & I believe he will tell you when the time is right.

Much love,
Nicki

cammi7070 said...

So you really got me thinking...
This really made me think about where I'm at in my walk with God. Ive been going to church since birth and its always been something I have enjoyed and found important as a Christian. But going to church doesn't mean much if your relationship with God only lasts for the 2 hour service on Sunday. It's comforting to know that we always have the choice, we can choose Him or choose the world. I'm 20 years old as as a young person, the world seems to offer so much more excitement and I can't lie...sin is easy and temptation seems fun. But personally at the end of it all, I am left feeling empty. Empty like, lost and searching for the next thrill. empty like after an amazing night of partying and the next morning I'm hungover and tired.. and i realize... Its sunday and i haven't gone to church in a while, heck i don't even know where my bible is...
Empty like weeks have gone by and I run to my friends for advice before i run to God.
Empty like I start to think that going back to church this sunday would only make me feel guilty for all the worldly things ive started to commit myself to.
Empty like...thinkin i have so much more to do before I give my life to God because I have so much going for me.
This is where I'm at. I'm on my own schedule, my own agenda. I make my own plans and do them when I want to do them. I might pray about it, but disregard the fact that he does actually answer.
I often think, what if i wait too long?
But what keeps my faith going is that I serve a a God that is a merciful God. He loves us and he welcomes us with open arms, he knows that he are flawed, he knows that we are lost. But he said that he is the way the truth and the life.
I can rely in him because He has perfect timing. he is my portion. He is all i need.
Because one day. he will return, and all that i though was important will not matter.
Nobody is perfect. But its crazy that with all the times we fight against him, God still loves us, and even though you may not be ready..and I may not be in the mindset to be able to fully commit myself to living a life for God...he will always be waiting.

Just the fact that you've been thinkin about this today, and all you're fans commenting, thats God. I know, I've been wrestling with God for the past two years, lol. He's been using all sorts of people to get through to me. And by grace alone he will fully embrace me.
You have such an influence on people, that's such an amazing gift bc people listen to you. so thanks for postin this blog today. Sorry its so long..its hard for me ti stop when I'm inspired :)

For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith – and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God – Ephesians 2:8

peace and God bless
@cammlawrence

Colleen said...

It is not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others" by Marianne Williamson. Bow, the first time I heard this was on Coach Carter. I didn't unerstand what it meant for me. The second time it came to me thru Tony Robbins & I understood why I was meant to hear it, ever since; I say to myself & believe it! Church is not only place God is, He's in you! If church is pressure, that's not God! And everyone sin's, that's between you and Him.So,I hope you don't sweat this this!C.

Emily said...

when the time is right GOD will lead you in the right direktion just know that of all things GOD knows r hearts more than anything he hears you prayer and wen the time is right he lead you 2 a church. You alredy have a personal relationship with GOD and thats all that matters. I knw you said in ur blog u ddnt want 2 practice the word and still b doing the wrong. Let me tell you dnt worry about tht there r times wen I do things that r not right in GODS eyes but I learn from my mistakes. KEEP PRAYING AND TALKING 2 GOD AND HE WILL ANSWER YOU PRAYERS

kamekabaker said...

WELL SHAD I'M AFRAID OF ALOT OF THINGS, THATS WHY I THINK I'M HELD BACK FROM DOING ALOT OF THINGS I WONNA DO IN MY LIFE BUT OF THEM ALL I WOULD HAVE TO SAY THAT I AM MOST AFRAID OF GOD AND DISAPPOINTING HIM !!!

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beebe09 said...

I feel the same way Bow...but mine is a little bit harder because my grandad is actually a deacon and its like everyone in my family thinks that I'm obligated to go.I understand what you're goin through. I've gone to church with my mom and my grandma and I look at how they act in church, all "holy holy" and what not but as soon as we leave church they'll be cursing and basically be back to their old ways. Also I noticed that there's a lot of rumors and a bunch of drama in church, my grandad is on the deacon board and let me tell you its like media takeout...a bunch of "he said, she said" and unnecessary drama, and I just don't wanna be a part of that. I haven't been to church in a long time as well and I just feel that when I do go I want it to mean something and not go in there and act "holy holy" one minute and then as soon as I leave be goin back to my old ways! I pray and talk to God everyday and I want you to know that you're not wrong for feeling that when God wants you to go to church he'll let you know because he knows how you feel and he knows where your heart is on this situation,and mine as well.

Beonka

dreamy_eye said...

You and I are in the same boat buddy. Everyone has their struggle, and everyone is on their own journey. Its a struggle because it's supposed to be. I go to church. I pray. I talk to God. I should do more. But at the same time, I am not sure how.

sasha said...

man Bow...this is a very deep topic. I wish I could sit and talk with u about this. sometimes in text it's hard to make urself clear on what ur trying to get across to some1. what u said is right, the most important thing u said is right, urpersonal relationship with God is definitely important. one thing people don't understand about God is that this "walk" is not a religion. all God wants from us is to SINCERELY try to be a better person and be all that He needs u to be. NONE of us will ever be perfect. but u can be perfect in Gods eyes! going to church is not THE most improtant factor in building ur relationship with Him. but u should try and find a good place to go. a place were u can grow spiritually. and no disrespect but stay away from the mega church (that's a whole other story) but anyway Bow I pray that u get to a place in ur life were u r ready to grow and mature. this walk ain't easy. but it's about truly giving God ur all. and that will require alot of changes in ur life. I serioulsy didn't mean to write this much. but i remember u brung this topic up a while back and I didn't say anything (and I regret that I didn't) but I had to make sure I said something this time. like I said, I wish I could really talk to u more about this topic. and u probably won't read this but hit me up on Twitter if u want to talk more @chefpraize_ltl (hope u see this) I'ma b praying for u Bow ( seriously) and don't talk to long to try and get right. much love

Real said...

You got the right idea man, church is corrupt now, not all, but a good bit, its turned into nothing but a ritual, some of the most Spiritual people are the ones that aren't on TV or standing in the pulpit, but the one who struggle with everyday stuff and give it up to God to fix they're problem. And yea change can be scary, but you need to change from whatever problems you have, because you don't know whats going to happen in the next few minutes, and thats a scary thing. It's not going to be easy, nothing ever is, but in the end its worth it. Big fan of the music, keep it real

neeneew said...

I feel the same way!!! I used to go to Church every Saturday and then one day I just stopped. I wasn't feeling it. I wasn't getting it. I took a step back and decided to let religion and Church life come to me. 11 yrs later, I'm slowly finding my way back to where I want to be when it comes to Church and religion even though I still don't go to Church. I hear God now more than ever...don't always take his advice but I'm still listening. God has given me certain twitter followers that he's using to help guide my way to where he wants me to be and I see how he's using them to talk to me when I'm not listening to him or missed a message. I just take it one day at a time with an open heart and an open mind knowing that it'll come and its coming soon.

This is a great post Bow Wow!!!

dreamy_eye said...

To be honest. I feel that God is the only one who can truly heal me. But I am scared to ask, because I feel unworthy because of my ways. So until then I will never really truly be healed until God heals me.

Christine Rubynee said...

Hey bow, im just giving an advise... Your mom is right... Don't get offended but she is right... The 2nd coming is just around the corner... You never know when but its written that GOD will come like a thief where you don't know when and which second... If ya feeling scard, talk to GOD... HE will give ya the courage boy... trust me... Thats all from me... Care for ya and thats why im tellin ya... Love ya always shad... Keep it real boy... ~ Christine Rubynee ~

shimirbby said...

I understand ya situation. There are some people who go to church claiming they are so holy ad godly when they really not. Just stay true to you and keep in touch with god because even though you may not go to church he knows you have a good heart, he knows what you plan to do, he knows when you ready to go to church and have the right mind state. Just go when you are ready and have ya mind cleared. Cause god still gonna love ya no matter what.!
-Always Love Hun.! <3
Chelsea [@charmbbyx]

english21 said...

DEAR SHAD

I HOPE U READ THIS-im not a church goer myself2b honest nd i truly beleve the most high is within u i beleve if church ws real then lyk 2pac sed y not leav all religious places open for da homeless nd da poor 'we gods pple' huh? not really church hs been taken ova by majority NOT all greedy self worship pastors n preists mkin money for themselves also teachin false doctrine..if the church hd good intentions y take away the truth of the story,it sounz hrd2belev i accept but lyk tupac sed listen2wa pple sayin always...the devil is the 1keepin u occupied onya xbox also inya materialistic world im not broke shad bti no wa it lyk2stuggle the industry is controled by devils nearly all aspects of life r now SATANIC,,im far frm a preacher im21 but ino da DIVIDE N CONQUER r a BIGG part of control i:e RELIGION,,,ALSO ORDER OUT OF CHAOS,,all to turn pple against one another mke pple look dwn on others lyk we dont bleed da sme colour shad im21 i gt knowlege for days i truly beleve i cd CONNECT wid u given the chance i added u on MYSPACE english girl i left u a message holla mee plzz nt ona fan ting or set up js a SPIRITUAL CONNECTION real TALK,,blessingz from above LOVE XX

T.Cherry said...

Don't feel bad for not going to church. You spirit is telling you that its not the place for you... You may ask yourself, then where is? Possibly the studio, the set, at home. You can praise and worship God anywhere, you can read and learn about the word anywhere, and the tithes and offerings can be done anywhere. As long as you know him and serving your purpose, ur good.

Now Fear..Fear is your friend and your enemy. Don't run from it, Face it and overcome it. The reward results in knowledge which allows you to achieve a new level of Shad. Can't no one fight a fear for you, it was established for a reason. Its a lesson, like grade school. Until you get the lessons from what they teach in 1st grade, you cant graduate to the 2nd. You can cheat and still be behind in the 2nd grade because its just a continuation of the lessons of the 1st grade.

I'll leave you with this quote

"Thou shall seek until he finds. When he finds, he will be disturbed. When he is disturbed, he will marvel and reign over all"---Jesus

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Rochella said...

Hey Bow, i felt the same way about church, i only use 2 go because my mum use to take me and my brother. And then my mum decided to leave me and my brother and tell us that when we are ready we can come to church without forcing us to go. Until last week I did make my decision to get baptised, because God actually was talking to me in my dreams (and i know that does sound weird) but i would have dreams of the world ending, and people telling me that i should get baptised. But this one dream i had i saw a really bad car crash and i ran up to the car to see if everyone is ok; and i said to them in my dream "did u know that you could have died" and they was like yeah. I said to them "if you had died where would you go" and then something said to me where r YOU going. So i decided that it is my time; to get baptised, its obvious that no one is perfect, and it does take time, so i just thought what have i got to lose really, but everything happens in its own time.. and you will know when its time for you to go.

I hope this helps xxx

Nikki said...

I used to feel the same way but I know I'm attending on the days I feel I want to go. I didn't go today but I'll be there for my birthday next week Sunday. I try to sign up for different things to keep me motivated as well. It does feel weird when I have to get up to read the daily word for the day but it only takes a minute, the rest of the time the pastor is speaking and I am just listening and taking notes when I can. I am not overly religious. I am very spiritual, I thank God for my blessings and I always pray for my family and for things to get better. You don't always have to attend every Sunday, just go when you feel the need to go. For years I didn't go as well, some Sundays it's tough for me but when I get there I feel great, like I said, I sign up to do something so I can always look forward to that. A few weeks ago we painted the room we do the service in. It took a couple of hours on a Saturday but it was the first time I did that. I still look around and I am happy I was a part of it and was able to help out some way. I just needed some time to myself today, no one is perfect. I would say attend when is the right time for you.

*Nikayla* said...

Hey Bow,
you may not get a chance to read this but i jus really feel the need to say it.
Church isn't just about praying. Yea you can do that yourself at home or on your tour bus or anywhere for that matter. Church is a place you go to get closer to God,to unite with others to hear his word, to minister to others, to share our testimonies. You can't get the same thing from simply praying before you go to bed that you get from going to church.
and the whole 'waiting on him to let me know when its right' thing. Stop it. Since when do we wait on God? He is waiting on you. Waiting on you to realize you need strengthen your relationship with him.
Ok i'm gonna stop now.
Love You Bow ! can't wait for all your upcoming projects !

Raquel J. said...

Hey Bow all I have 2 say is that Church is in your heart, I feel the same way, God knows ya heart and thats all that matters. I'm more spiritual than a religious person, as long as you live life the right way and don't harm yourself or others that is pleasing God. Not going to church to please others, when the time comes you will go. But remember Church is in your heart. Jay-z said u don't gotta go to church to get to know ya God and thats true because it's in ya heart.

Butterfly_Haiku said...

@Butterfly_Haiku twitter
Dear Shad,
Fear is a gift from God. When one feels fear it is because our body is telling us that we need to examine something and sometimes run from it. Now in the Bible God and his prophets tell us that one should fear nothing but the Lord, Our God. So UR doing right to talk to God and say to HIM,"God I need U and Love U, what should I do, help me." If U fear church it means U are a normal, healthy person who is running from the cruelty, misguidance, and malicious malice of others. "Where 2 or 3 have come together in my name there I am in their midst,"says Jesus Christ in the Bible. That means you feel more comfortable in the true presence of God which you accept in your life on the regular. Not in the artificial sanctuary of people who want to fleece you of your $$$, judge you, and make you feel far from the presence of Our One True Living God. Listen Baby Boy, you have been working your whole young life. You have been separated from your youth and forced into the slavery of making money and giving your body to make other people their livelihood. Yet you are still a sensitive, loving, intelligent, God Loving man. It is a miracle of God that you have a relationship with HIM so keep it just as it is in your heart and on your mind. Also in the Bible it says a man who lays down with a woman who is not your wife should pay her her worth and move on. The Bible does not say that a man has to feel ashamed of having sex outside of marriage but that he should seek a virtuous woman so that she can bring him honor, comfort, and love. It is a sin to sleep with someone's wife so don't fornicate with married women. We all are sinners and that is why we have baptism and Jesus Christ to wash our sins away. I would encourage you to talk to @TasteMy_Cupcake further about scripture because she is highly educated in the word. Everything I spoke of today has a scripture that supports it. I will send it to you. To share a little of myself since you shared your intimate feelings today and that is really brave, I do not have a home church that I go to either. I read the Kings James Bible, talk to rabbis & priests from around the world when I have questions, and pray with my family in prayer circle everyday. The reason God had our BELOVED King David protect the Ark of the Covenant but not build the House of the Lord is because it is a special person who actually needs to build and maintain the House of God. If a person is not called by God to speak HIS word then HE/SHE may lead you astray. Just because someone builds a church does not mean it is a holy place.
My Family sends our tithes to certain places that we know do the work of God: Joyce Meyers Ministries, http://www.shemayisrael.com/publicat/schwartz/, http://www.stpaulsbenicia.org/

These are places that you can go and they are safe for you to talk about God without being judged. I am going to have the rabbi pray for you and if you send him letters he personally answers them and writes you back.



Call, in Israel 08-974-1285

Outside Israel 972-8-974-1285

or write to:
Avraham Tzvi Schwartz

27/3 Meshech Chochma, Modiin Elite 71919, Israel

He is co cool. And he sends me books for free from Israel which to Phoenix costs him money. He is sweet so feel free to talk to him he is very helpful.
Shad if you are looking for a place to get baptised then know that this can happen at any body of water with a person who you trust. You simply say that Jesus Christ is your Savior and you believe he was born, died, rose again, and that you accept him in your heart. U can even do it with just you and God.

In Christ,

Miss Butterfly

monica said...

Heyy Bow :), well i go to church every sunday not because i want to go, i go out of respect for my mum. But, i do believe in god, i just think church is a lil bit like a cult and that scares me a bit cause i dont want to be apart of that but i know it would upset my mum so i go for that reason. But anyway, I think at the end of this life, if there is a god, hes not gonna judge you on how many times you went to church its gonna be on how good a life you led and how good a person you were.

Anyways,
Love&Hugs Monica :) xoxo

Monyca said...

First I commend you for coming out and being transparent about this situation because so many young people are also feeling the same way. However, they choose not to speak on it for fear of being shunned by their peers. But the Bible tells us in 1 Timothy 4:12, "Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity." Even though we are young we must still be an example for the lost. Many people say "Oh I will get my life right ONE day" and it is always said that life isn't promised to anyone. However, it isn't until something dramatic or life-threatening happens in one's life before they really get their lives together unfortunately. I hope and pray that this will not be the case for you. As far as church goes the Bible instructs us to attend. In Hebrews 10:25, "And let us not neglect our meeting together, as some people do, but encourage one another, especially now that the day of his return is drawing near." Church is a place to hear God's word, receive specific instructions and guidance for your personal life, fellowship w/ peers who are seeking the Lord's face as well, and a place to worship the King. Being able to interact with peers who are seeking God also will have a great impact on your life. If you hang around people who find joy in sinning and have no intention of ever changing, trying to change your life for the better will become even harder. 1st Corinthians 15:33 says, “Do not be misled: "Bad company corrupts good character." With all that said I do not believe that your problem is attending church but it is going through a change. But you must realize that this change will be the best thing that you will ever do. Choosing to serve God (Our creator) with your life will be so much more rewarding than anything on this earth. "And what do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul?" Mark 8:36. There is so much more I could say but this is already more lengthy than I expected but I hope it helps. :) Also here is an article that may help: http://www.streamingfaith.com/index.php/prayer/devotionals/why-we-meet-together-regularly/ God bless!
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paidentertainment said...

Wow Bow, I am surprised that you came out and said this. Its bold of you. So many people have it all wrong! they think that God wants PERFECTION! But he doesn't he just wants a trying heart. The bible says No man is perfect so waiting to get perfect or almost there to go to church is wrong. Also, thinking that man I can't go there because im in sin isn't right either because WHERE SHOULD THE SINNER'S GO?? To church! How can we get healed from wrong if we never go to the place that can get us closer to healing!
For a person being in the "lime light" of the "world" having a personal relationship w/ God is and will forever be hard. This is because you value the "world". Seek ye first the kingdom of God Bow! Just make sure thats what you do. I'm 19 years old in college away from home and the everyday church life too. Its hard being young temptations are crazy! For you they are 100x's harder. But know that greater is in you than he thats in the world! Nobody can walk the path your on but you. Your path was made to be conquered. At times I feel like man, why pray to a God that created my temptations and knows whether or not I'm going to fail. But we gotta remember that our test come only to make us strong. How can we reign w/ God and have never been in the valley's w/ him. Your a leader, I've watched you since we were young. Times have changed but God hasn't!!! Take small steps back to God! Like praying and reading the word. Just one scripture a day. Build it up, just make sure you stay honest w/God! I gotta get back to God too. Where I am now is the furthest I've ever been! We can get to him. One last thing, make your relationship w/ God personal. Don't air it out. Bc u have the fame some pastors will try to exploit you and cloak it under God's name. Everybody's salvation is different. I have so much more respect for you. And I pray that God does light the path for you to him.

bre said...

That is a wonderful article. Some can learn from that & alot of people are the same way . I feel where yu comin from . Itll come to yu soon ;) Ill Like Yu Whether Yu Do or Dont Chanqe

dorseyboyc07 said...

Bro I 100% Fell You. Mostly Everyone goes threw the feelings you are having. I have myself. Being a Christian the road is not easy. We deal with what our peers will say to us, and how they will look at us, but at the end of the day we have to do what best for us and our relationship with God. I say this dont worry about what your peers say about you and God. Worry about what God says about you and God. Im going to leave you with this scripture from Romans 7:12 "Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will."

Much Love And God Bless!!!
***Straight Positivity***

*Animated A*4987 said...

Listen...you keep doing what you Mr.Moss....you are loved and this is important that you remember....YOU ARE ALREADY FORGIVEN FOR EVERYTHING YOU HAVE DONE AND EVERYTHING YOU WILL DO..as long as you believe in him and except him as your lord and Savior.....long story short babes ****PEACE N LOVE****

quatadenise said...

i Feel The Same Way Bow, U Not Alone On That.. iT Do Take Time, Some More Than Others ..


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mrs_cutie813 said...

Hey Bow
My mama always told me as long a u believe in him , read ur bible every day or night, know that ur are saved and last but not least PRAY. U dont have to go to church every Sunday go like once or twice a month. And if u dont want to do that turn the tv on and watch a sunday service . after that ur friends and game will be right there waiting for ya

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Country said...

I went to church it's just not for me. In know there is a god. But I don't have to go to church to know what he stands for. I have not been to church in 11 years.

Brooke.Phoenix said...

i feel the same way, i feel guilty for never going but i know its for the best cos in their eyes im a sinner, and i cant see me changing anytime soon, and I dont wanna be using God just to make myself feel better.

Damon said...

i think God cares less about where you pray and more how you pray, which is why you should try to put some soul in your lyrics.

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minináH said...

Look, I know it's hard to believe, but I hadfelt this way about God, church, etc. .. I always believed him but I did not feel like going to church, I was even a time without going to church (more or less three years), and I also felt fear, but fear being "punished" in some way, or no God like me more so my mother told me I had to go to church agredecer for everything, but I would rather thank home. At the time of going to church, I was asleep or awake and watching television. But one day, I woke up and I do not know how, I heard a phrase "idiot" who made me cry and want to go back to church, and after that that, I never could get going without. Well, what I mean is: do not be scared, or thinking that is hurting someone for not wanting to go to church one day you'll wake up and feel in your heart will go, without anyone say "go", and this day, you'll feel lighter, happier with yourself, and you'll find the answers to all your fears. Stay well, hope you can find their answers as I found
kisses

bri_8847on said...

preparing to watch "LOTTERY TICKET" shall be watching it twice. other than that i'm saving my money up so that the nexttime you come i can get front row tickets. sittin up high wasnt good enough for me. ;) love you BOW.
plz follow me on twitter. @Briz01

Lilly said...

Bow Wow, eu nem vejo a hora de poder assistir Lotery ticket espero que esse filme venha para o Brasil porque o hurricane season, não chegou aqui ainda e estou louca pra vê-lo. E estou louca também que você venha fazer uma turnê pelo Brasil nem vejo a hora de isso acontecer,parabéns pelo prêmio e que você ganhe mais e mais. Estou na espectativa de te ver e entrar no seu camarote Eu te amo ! Mil Beijos na boca !


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Bow Wow, I did not wait to be able to watch Lotery ticket hope this movie come to Brazil because the hurricane season, has not arrived here yet and I'm dying to see it. And I'm also mad that you will make a tour of Brazil do not even see the time this happens, congratulations on the prize and you win more and more. I am in expectation of seeing you enter your cabin and I love you! A thousand kisses on the mouth!

Shells said...

At the end of the day, each church is what the people make of it. Like in the bible, when Jesus walked through the temple, and they were selling chickens, and he asked "what have you done to my father's house?" Each church is a house of God, but also a house that is centered around the congregation. When you walk into church, you won't be walking into an empty temple, but a place filled with people, who will largely react to your celebrity status. They will ask to take pictures, ask for your autograph, and all of sudden, church has the capabilities of turning into something other than what it was intended. You won't get the same experience, that regular people get.

I'm a principal in a small town, I try to go to church, but then there's a parent, that wants to talk about something different, a teacher that wants a job,or just more than what I'm looking for, or need. When my father died, I just wanted to attend, and pray, and think about him. That was hard for me to achieve.

I try to develop my relationship with the Lord on a personal basis. I hope to find a church home one day, it will have to be a place, that allows me a certain amount of privacy. I think, you will have to search for something similar.

elegance said...

WOw...this is something I didn't know about you, but its okay you know when its your time to go to church...love ya bow

warrend08 said...

I feel that as long as you know your relationship with God and has accepted Him as your Lord and Savior then that's all that matters. I didn't go to church for some years and I just started back going last year, but everyone that I've spoken with said that it doesn't matter if you attend church or not just as long as you know Him and accept Him as the head of your life! God Bless! Love Ya!! :-)

Mari said...

I feel the same way... but the difference is that I don't live with my parents.. and I just realized that one day this will happen for ever.. and I have to believe in something that will make me stronger of mind and soul..
I believe in God, but I don't go to church either.. I'm thinking about change religion.. because I don't feel complete at catolic church.. but I think that is my decision you see? just like going or not to church is yours.. don't feel pressured, take your time..
God will make you know when is the right time!
;D
sorry about my English.. I'm brazilian and I haven't studied for a loooong time.

I hope that I helped you somehow.

kisses of your big fan! Mariana.

Des said...

Bow i feel u! I am very comfortable with my religion as a christian but when i visit other church homes n religions i always fill out of place especially when people around me fill the spirit n i dont! I fill so out of place!

Charlene said...

Hey Shad, i think its great your aware of the situation. & all i wanna tell you is, its normal to feel the way you feel & yes religion should not be pressed on anybody. It most def is all about your relationship with God & honestly church is their to water your soul & keep you aware of things God has done for us & the promises he made. Its kinda there to keep you in check. & God speaks in many ways. So God might be speaking to you thru your mom. & yes times running out. Well keep on praying. GB.

royalmiss said...

The day you was conceived you became a sinner. There is no evidence of any perfect man on earth. God knows your every doing before you do it and knew that you was going to be the successful man that you are today. With you even thinking about this and bringing up the subject, show's that you have GOD in your heart and fears him. Not every church is the right church to go to bc some churchs do preach the wrong word. But, once you step foot in to a real house of the Lord that speak right of the bible you will get comfortable and feel at home. I am 24 years old and though I was raised in the church, it wasn't until 3 years ago I understood my purpose in life and why GOD put me through the certain test I went through. We all sin, the preacher, usher, decan & choir we all sin Brother! If you thank the Lord for your blessings it wont hurt to give him 3 or 4 hours of your time to praise and thank him...even if it's turning to BET on a sunday or just reading the bible...Don't fear what else GOD has planned for you...trust me I am witness. It is more then you can imagine!!!! Love ya & God Bless!!!!

bugz_bunnys_lover said...

OKAY, WHEN I READ THIS I SAID WOW, THIS IS A SIDE OF YOU I HAVE NEVER EXPERIENCED BEFORE....I'M ONLY 20 AND I'VE BEEN SAVED SINCE 2 DAYS BEFORE MY 16TH BIRTHDAY....IT HASNT BEEN EASY BUT I WOULDN'T GIVE IT UP FOR ALL THE RICHES IN THE WORLD...TO KNOW THAT AS LONG AS I CONTINUE TO PUT GOD FIRST AND DO HIS WILL AND LET HIM REIGN OVER MY LIFE IMA HAVE ETERNAL LIFE IN HEAVEN...I WISH I CUD TALK TO YOU PERSONALLY SO YOU CUD UNDERSTAND WHERE IM COMING FROM...ur right everyone is afraid at first. i was too and even now some things that I do or say I be like God what if they dont receive it, what if they dont like it but who do i care more about God or people? God, ofcourse because He has my back when ppl dont...what im saying is, most ppl think they have until they're old to live for God but its not always like that. As we can see from all the young ppl that have been dying...most of us feel as if we dont kill anyone, we do community service and give back then we will make it to Heaven. Jesus said the only way to the Father is through Him, so that means your works wont get you anywhere. Its the personal relationship with Him that will you there. Its rather you live your life for Him (saved) or not...ur right salvation is not to be forced on anyone and i hate when ppl do that because God didn't force Himself on anyone. Its a choice....here's my email bugz_bunnys_lover@yahoo.com (hit me if you ever wanna talk)....also there's a book that my momz bought last night, read 10chpts of it and could not continue on, its that real..."a divine revelation of hell" by: mary k. braxter

God Bless You

shanise said...

I understand where your coming from on the whole church thing, you will know when your ready because god will show you that you are ready and you will be able to feel it in your heart. I was forced to live on my own at 16 deal drugs the whole nine but i never missed a day of school and eventually by going to church i was able to see things differently i got blessed with a family that loves me I am the first child to graduate college, military etc. its all about the relationship you have with god just think of it like this " he may not come when you call but hes right on time." meaning as i said before when you ready he will know you will know and the church you pick will be the best fit for you. luv Chrissy-Milan

S Batts said...

I think this may help give a little insight

http://thesinglebutterfly.blogspot.com/2010/06/missing-church.html

SAMANTHAC19 said...

No BOWEEZY you are not alone in feeling like this. I use to go to church for years. Now everytime I go I feel out of place like I don't belong there. All you can do is do what you think is right and everything will work out evetually and you will know when its time for you to go to church. Don't sweat it right now it will be fine...

Marcolin said...

I think it's important to listen to yourself and talk to God- just ask him to feel closer to him. I do that..and i think you are doing great..as i feel there is not use to just go to church for the sake of it..knowing that you don't understand it and feel it. As long as you try and talk to God and really ask him to make you a better person and understand him better. *i dn't know, but def somthing like that* U good Bow ( i think)

Z3ii said...

I think its a good thing to have a relationship with God. As long as your on the right track of getting to know God etcera then everything should be fine. My problem with churches is that they are always preachin' at you instead of giving you the help or information that you need to be stronger. People in churches tend to act holier than thou when infact most of them live a life way worse than you. They judge, but thats okay everyone judges. Soon enough it will come to a point where you realise it doesnt matter who wants to look and point their fingers at you because your not there for them. Another thing is that, no-one can live a life without sin. Its impossible. All you can do is accept Christ and try your best to live the right way, but you will slip up everynow and again, and thats fine, as long as you go back to where God wants you to be in the end.
Zhonia x

Alicia101 said...

Hi Bow wow I wanted to respond to your blog because I felt as if you were crying out for help.I understand this is a touchy subject and want to give you my best advice, that's why I read over your comments so that I won't be repeating something you already heard.It's funny because as I'm writing you now I'm asking God for the right words to give you.I remember you were saying how you haven't been to church in a while because you didn't like the feeling the preacher gave you,making you come to the front and putting you on the spot.I understand how that can make you feel out of place because coming to God is a personal thing.I was brought up in church and as a child I use to fall asleep during the word because it never really caught my attention.Of course my mom used to always shove me to wake me up out of respect for God.But it bored me because I was forced to go all the time.I had to attend bible study, was in the worship/praise dancing ministry,and was in all the children plays.But as I got older my mom allowed me to make that decision for myself.And I was grateful for that...It's like having the freedom to not work after you've been working all your life.You love the break but sooner or later you get tired of being lazy and want to get back out there and do some work.That's what I eventually ended up doing.I started to visit a friend of mine at the time church and was getting a deeper understanding of the word and started to see more clearly what my purpose in life was.I was going so often people from the church were asking me to join.I would always tell them, "nah I'm fine I have a church home already",knowing I wasn't attending my old church.I didn't want to commit myself to this new church because I knew that I was a sinner and wanted to be more perfect before God.I joined not too long after that realizing no one's perfect.Everyone sins and that's why people go to church.When you become saved and the more you grow in God your going to learn more knowledge and wisdom than you thought possible because God provides that for you.You will feel the need to judge yourself from certain sins and temptations you chose to do because of your wisdom.This is a good thing to do,God wants us to judge ourselves now so that on judgement day when we do stand before him we won't have no fear because we know we had that bond with him on earth.If you ask God for forgiveness he's going to forgive you and the only time he think about it again is when you remind him of your sin.I was going to church every sunday and enjoying it,constantly learning and inspiring others in my life through God............

Alicia101 said...

..............I don't go every sunday now because I feel as if it is a personal thing between you & the Lord and you shouldn't be force or feel obligated to go.God knows my reasons when I decide not to go some sundays or just can't make it and I appreciate that understanding from him.I go to give him praise and worship him in the presence of his saints.It's such an uplifting feeling and afterwards I feel the change within me.Plus I want to learn how I can better myself and get that closer relationship with him.I don't want to be the one he judges in the ressurrection and I be like, "Hi Jesus" and he say, "I don't know you or how have you used your purpose I gave you?"(My purpose is to share his word with others)Not all churches are preaching the Lord's word.Some people you have to be careful listening to because their preaching to give themselves glory.They enjoy the power they have over people's lifes and try to act as if it's them and not acknowledging where it's really coming from.It's like the saying goes,"don't eat from everyone's kitchen because not everyone's hand's are clean."It's alright to believe that God is real and pray but even the devil knows that the Lord is who he says he is.God wants his children to prove their love.Do what he says to do by following his word and trying to have a closer relationship with him.God is a jealous God and wants your attention.You asked why is it that you rather hang out or play video games with the homies as to going to church...that's because you in your comfort zone.It's so easy to do what you want than to set some rules before you and try to follow them daily.Your going to be the one to inspire your homies to go to church once they see you going and how much your changing.It's not a bad change,it's a good change.Something that's going to mature you and have you looking at things in different perspectives.I give glory to God in certain situations and he appreciates that so much.It's because that's my way of giving him love.Showing him that if it wasn't for him there would be no me.I'm not going to say wait on the Lord to tell you when the time is right to go to church because I feel like he's already talking to you.Maybe he been talking to you about the situation but you have been so scared you didn't know how to respond or act on it.You were too afraid/nervous like you say to make the step.Just know that God is with you even though your in fear.He will walk with you in the church,just talk to him like you do at home.I don't know if what I said will help you on your journey...I don't know if I said too much or too little but I'll be praying for you that God helps you on your walk to Him.Continue to talk with your mom as well about church...She's letting the Lord use her through her twitter and people see that.You can tell by her tweets as well by looking at the people she's following.I'm so glad that you have her to give you spiritual guidance.As you grow and learn new things,it's going to excite you to have a conversation about all the good things God has done for you.At times I reflect on my situation and wonder how can God love me so much?He just does.Not everything is going to be explained to you because God don't let people know all his moves.

Sarah said...

***Remember these few words "I am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit He takes away; and every branch that bears fruit He prunes, that it may bear more fruit. You are already clean because of the word which I have spoken to you. Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me." John 15:1-4

You see Jesus knew exactly where you would be on this day, and before he left this earth he send the words of peace to his people. Don't let the devil put fear in your heart to hinder you from your blessings. You ever think to yourself that something is missing? That's because it is. Church is a school for the saints, to learn the correct meanings of our Lord and Savior. Yes, not everything will be perfect and will we want to hear but that's just it, WE HAVE TO WANT TO BE BETTER AND KNOW MORE.

"You are already clean because of the word which I have spoken to you..." You are "already" clean! Don't let the devil scare you out of being blessed Shad. If you are afraid, just close your eyes and step out on Faith, ask God to guide those steps you'll take because you don't know how to. We tend to try to do everything on our own but that's why God is there...that's his job to be our backing...Let him do it for you. Trust him to have your back when you go.

After all, if you fear things that means that you really don't trust God to handle it for you. . . and what is a relationship without trust? <3

SarahVaughnLo
God Bless you my brother =)

sexymama4bw said...

Bow, don't be afraid of the church. If you want to better yourself as a man, the Lord will guide you. Believe and pray! I love you, just know that. *kiss* I want you to go to church this coming Sunday with your momma and I want you to come back on here and write a new blog about your experience. Do that!

alexis_wild_cats said...

I FEEL THE SAME WAY MY PARENTS GO EVERY SUNDAY BUT I JUST CAN'T SOMETIMES BECAUSE LIKE YOU I FEEL OUT OF PLACE...AND I FEEL LIKE SOMETIMES PPL LOOK DOWN ON ME THERE...

lightbrowneyes2 said...

WOW! Let's see, Church should not be forced on anyone. It is your choice. I understand your Mom wanting you to go. You are her baby, and that would seal the deal for her. However, Your points are correct. I go to church and have been since I was a teenager. Go when you feel it in your heart. You believe in God and you pray so that is your 1st step. God has been mighty good to you and your blessings are an overflow. He gave you an extraordinary talent and with this you can live the lifestyle of the rich and famous. Think about it, you are 23 and financially set. So God should be #1 in your eyes. Just keep your heart right Bow. God has been with you for 23 yrs. He will never leave you or forsake you. Acknowlege God and he will do the rest. Continue to be grateful and humble. Don't be afraid of self change. It could only make you better. Bow just develop a relationship with God. Everything else will fall into place. God knows your every thought. He didn't bring you this far to leave you. You are a very smart and mature man for your age. You hold a good conversation. Oh yeah, I also read your interview in Ozone magazine. Very, very nice. I love it. I love your blog and I will continue to post my comments. God bless you Bow. Smooches..xoxoxoxoxo

KinG said...

BOW MAYB ITS NOT THAT U AFRAID OF GOING YOU JUS HAVENT REACHED THAT LEVEL.....MY FOSTER GRANDMA ALWAYS TELLS ME THAT AS LONG AS YOU LET GOD IN YOUR HEART AND IN YOUR LIFE YOU'LL BE OK....YES WE'VE ALL MADE MISTAKES THAT NUN 2 BE ASHAMED OF BUT ASK GOD FORGIVNESS AFTER AND HE WILL FORGIVE YOU....TRUST ME YOU WILL REACH THAT LEVEL OF GOIN 2 CHURCH....I HAVE THE SAME PROB. SUMTIMES ITS FOR DIFFERENT REASONS SOMETIMES IT THE SCENERY THAT MAKES YOU UNCOMFORTABLE....BUT ALL YOU NEED TO DO IS READ THE DAILY WORD, LET GOD IN YOUR HEART AND YOUR LIFE, LIVE LIFE, STAY BLESSED, AND LET GOD CONTINUE HIS GREAT PLAN FOR U ..... THATS ALL MAN.....GODBLESS AND KEEP YO HEAD UP
- KINGJ4M3Z....MUCH LUV BRO

London said...

The HipHopHonors performance was great. Keep doing what you doing. Tweet me sometime @Londonkizzez.
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soulchild said...

I hear you Shad..church is a place where christians fellowship with others but having a personal relationship with God is something different.Christians go to church to encourage each other and get nourished.Continue building your relationship with the lord then everything else will be strait

mr.chiakajaylou said...

Man bow i understand. Whn yo go to church it makes u change. and i understand that u dont wanna do it beacuz thats what made you, but at the end of the day its your reationship with God that matters. Not the front! Sometimes thats what church is. some people constantly go to church just to say that they go and can look down on non go-ers...but a just as bad or even worst than someone who dont go. Church allows you to know more about your religon. You can learn at home! thats y jesus said On this rock i bulid my chuch....Peter wasnt a rock...it was his faith and beleif in Jesus. so Bow dont feel bad research for yourself and preach to yourself. keep your relationship with God between you and him but dont b afriad to claim him....I am a huge fan and its been times where your music has gotten me through growning up, now being a fan (o my bad)...family its my turn....bow we got yo back

PinkSecret said...

Don't listen to people that tell you that Church is not important. In the Bible it tells you that you should go. Going to Church gives you encouragement for everyday life and can teach you more than you knew about God before. God is infinite, so if you ever think you know enough, think again.

Church is for anyone who's interested in God and believes in the Bible. You just have to find the one you feel most comfortable in, because all preachers are different and they can make you not want to go back. I used to feel like I didn't need Church to have a relationship with God, not to mention that I thought it was mad boring, but I found one that I LOVE. I've learned so much and became much more comfortable with it by talking to the right people and going to Bible study. Just remember that every single person in this world is doing something they should be ashamed of, so you shouldn't feel out of place. Sometimes the people in Church are doing the most scandalous things. Even if they judge you, oh well, people will judge you even outside of Church. You out of all people BOW should know. Change comes naturally with God, so you don't need to wait to change and then go. You just need to be ready like you said and God will change you.

In the meantime, just continue to pray and read your Bible. You can watch Church through TV first if you want to. There's the WORD network and TBN. ;)

Ashley said...

Church is just a building. If u pray that is good enough the people are the church are the biggest devils sometimes..u have been blessed this far so keep up the good work.. Follow Me @YnvAdo.

Da05bidnessman said...

Its funny how u play a character dat works at footlocker cuz I actually work there...lol

Lady G. & Cynz said...

It all balls down to this. I found this blog entry interesting I love reading other ppls blogs. And its not even because your "bow wow" because Im not a hip hop fan honestly my taste in music is all old school. But the fact that your a normal person like each and everyone of us. People who have a relationship with the Lord are allways going to have these inner battles. I grew being forced to go to church and once I hit 17 I rebeled!! I did not go there was a point where i hated church and God. But if you believe in God you know there is evil in this world to. The Fallen one the enemy. And he uses everything you speak out loud all the negative things you speak to mess with your mind. The mind is where the battle begins. That is why they say becareful what you say, because the Devil cant read your thoughts only God can. And think it about to, not to say all music and hip hop music is bad because theres songs out there Ive heard that I like and the messages are deep. But you do know that Satan was the angel of music right? And you often here people speak about the power of music how it can easily influence people how it has such an impact, how its universal? He uses that to win souls for him to.

Church does not make you a better christian. Ive come back and gave my life to the Lord again two yrs ago. I am now part of the worship team. It does not get easier for me infact those spiritual attacks come more and more. But that scared feeling....thats the enemies lies and the conviction of the holy spirit. Dont be afraid. What is there to be afraid of? Is God a tryant or a loving God who sent his song to sacrifice his life for all of man and carry their burdens. Dont fear God. Seek him , keep the lines of communication open threw prayer which is powerful. Read his word because if you want prayer to work you need to know his word, which is our weapon thats why they call it the sword of truth.
A church is a a house of worship. Not a place to get you to heaven. You come to church to fellowship with your brother and sisters in christ to hear a good preaching, to praise with the congregation. Thats what church is for a house of worship thats all. What matter is your relationship. And its not about religion get that out of your head. He does not care about religion MAN made that he wants a personal relationship. He wants us to seek him to love him , to spread Gods love unto others especially those who are lost in the world. If it was not for God think about where would we be now, where would we be if we didnt ask God to keep us safe or to help us in a situation. Church is not full of holy people who is holy only God, we all fall short of the glory. So when people say I dont go to church because you have ppl who talk garbage or who are hypocrties. News Flash we all know this, they know this. But where in life do you not have hypocrites. There is no avoiding it.But thats where we come along and kill them with kindness. What good would it do to let them drive you from coming to church. And your gonna have people wo will hurt you, Ive been hurt by someone there, deeply hurt. But nothing makes us more Godlike than the power of forgiveness. Not to forget but to forgive. God will deal with that person, especially on judegement day. Our choices in life what roads we take determine our eternal fate. Remember that, dont allways rely on peoples opinions either trust in the Lord and lean not on your own understanding. He will not steer you wrong.
God Bless you and keep your eye on the prize.

All that is.... said...

I need your help Bow...

Atlanta Night Spots said...

What is necessary for those to realize is that church is a place of God. All churches are not this way. The majority of the preachers are false prophets who are only interested in the collection plate. Others are truly from God. It's all about you and where you are in your life. So are you saying it's been 3/4 years that you've spent without God? If that is the case you should go. Don't just go truly give yourself. Just like you did on the Lottery Ticket set. In your life you have been blessed more than those twice your age. Movies, music career, wealth. Come on you have nothing but reasons to give thanks to him. (from your lottery ticket friend :)

Atlanta Night Spots said...

PS Even though every time I see you, you run the other way. I will pray for you because that is what you need. I think change is scary. However, it is necessary. If you do give your life to God you will have to give up the way of the world. Yes women, yes drinking, yes whatever else you do. But the rewards that you get in return is more that you could ever imagine. When you have sex with a women that is not yours (wife) their is no telling what you will get. ie burnt, rumors, blackmail, whatever. I pray for you Shad because your in deep. Real deep. But, their is hope for you.

Atlanta Night Spots said...

Here are some words of wisdom from God himself to help you out. READ THE BIBLE: START WITH PROVERBS AND ROMANS


My son, if you receive my words and treasure my commands, turning your ear to wisdom, inclining your heart to understanding; Yes, if you call to intelligence, and to understanding raise your voice; If you seek her like silver, and like hidden treasures search her out: Then will you understand the fear of the Lord; the knowledge of God you will find; For the Lord gives wisdom, from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.
-- Proverbs 2:1-6

Don’t answer the foolish arguments of fools,
or you will become as foolish as they are.
Be sure to answer the foolish arguments of fools,or they will become wise in their own estimation.

The full soul loatheth an honeycomb; but to the hungry soul every bitter thing is sweet.”—Proverbs 27:7.

"The backslider in heart shall be filled with his own ways: and a good man shall be satisfied from himself.”—Proverbs 14:14.

His own iniquities shall take the wicked himself, and he shall be holden with the cords of his sins."—Proverbs 5:22.

Buy the truth, and sell it not."—Proverbs 23:23

Atlanta Night Spots said...

Ok this is my last one...God has compelled me to speak to you. Even though you were so mean to me on the set of the lottery ticket, I will eat my ego:

Hosea 4:5 You stumble day and night, and the prophets stumble with you. So I will destroy your mother-- 6-my people are destroyed from lack of knowledge. "Because you have rejected knowledge, I also reject you as my priests; because you have ignored the law of your God, I also will ignore your children. 7-The more the priests increased, the more they sinned against me; they exchanged their Glory for something disgraceful.

Nahomie said...

heyyy Shad Moss : ) how u doinq ? i cant wait to see ur new movie; it looks mad FUNNY !

PinkSecret said...

YESSSS

Lady G knows what she's talking about. Take that advice.

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angel-devil-808 said...

i feel what your sayin man, my mama's a huge church going woman, and she always says that preachin ain't gonna do no good for the deaf. If you can't hear it yet, then there ain't no point in trying to force it...

onay13 said...

You know what bowwow...I really understand what you mean about the whole church and God thing but you shouldn't fear the Lord he want to be your bestfriend. It's a scary concept I know because why would something so huge....So much better than you want to be your friend? But it's because he loves you he made you in the image of him! and prays you will see his light. At least you pray that is something that most people do.
I think with you waking up to the preachers voice right there god was trying to get your attention and yes he did man. He never fails or prevails and everythign he says will come to pass. i'm sure he's told you you will enter his house one day so have faith because you will, maybe not right now; there might be other things you wish to do but trust me when i tell you the Lord never changes. He always right there. And your the one walking away from him or denying him, Ouch I know that hurts but it's the truth we all do it. So do I. But before that realize ever the people in the bible fell, peter, paul all of them has fallen short of the glory of God you only human don't blame your self only pray and ask God to gide you with that said let me leave you with this proverbs
A man's heart deviseth his way; but the Lord directeth his steps probverb16:9
I pray to God you get this and recieve this
Amen have a wonderful week
your lovely beautiful fan Oneshia Nelson.

Nekesha said...

I feel out of place when I go to church. I believe in god but I dont think I have to go to church every sunday and put on a front so that I look like a good person.When I did go people would look at me strange if I wasn't screaming and hollering or testifying about something like everyone else. It feels almost like a cult to me. I just think that church isnt for everybody.

BabyBoo said...

It all depends on what Church. My church doesn't do all that screamin, hollerin and fallin out, but I've been to Churches that have. My Pastor would ask you to stop real quick, unless there's an obvious personal breakdown from losing a loved one or whatever, he'll talk to you and hug you instead.

You can't go to one Church and form an opinion. If you're really interested, you'll find a Church thats best for you and stop caring about people looking at you. Just know that that's something that they're doing wrong. Church is about learning and support, so if you're not learning or being supported by the ppl around you, then you need to find another Church. If people looking at you is a problem, try a bigger Church. People won't pay you any mind, and you'll see somebody new every Sunday. And try one that's non-denominational so you don't have to limit yourself to rituals and things like that.

The Bible tells you to go, but I don't think it says every Sunday. Maybe new goers should try going every other Sunday or one Sunday of the month... Even though we should at least put aside 2 hours of ONE DAY out of SEVEN DAYS for God. People find all the excuses until something goes wrong. I don't understand how people can know God without reading about him in the Bible or going to Bible Study at Church. Trying to figure out the Bible alone can be confusing.


It's great to believe in God, but it's another thing to know him. There are people that believe in God and purposely reject him and curse his name. A lot of people believe in Him, but He's not included in their lives at all.

AssataFierce said...

i know exactly how you feel, i was feelin' the same exact way not too long along. i was just afraid to answer God's calling, because i knew that i wasnt going to change myself 100 percent or truly be the person that he wanted to be me. but now im slowing transforming myself into the person that God wants me to be and i can say that i feel amazingggggggggg, it like everything is working for me. but it takes time , courage && hope and once you do this, your life change for all the better.

Lady G. & Cynz said...

Idk what compelled me to come back to, but I've also been blessed reading everyone else's comments here. Very encouraging words. Especiall Atlanta Night Spots. Keep in mind when ppl feel compelled to minister to you and feed you scripture verse's don't take offense because thats how I used to feel and think to myself "These church ppl act like they better than everyone else". No...far from that. As followers of Christ we have an obligation to uphold. And that is to spread the gospel. Simple. Foreveryone else leaving encouraging comments I love it. Continue to spread Gods love. Don't be ashamed, and the enemy is going to try and instill fear in all of our hearts. Especially Bow wows because he knows Bow wow has a desire to draw closer to the Lord. And that is the last thing Satan wants. Don't you know that Satan and his demons tremble at the very name of Jesus? His blood covers us and when his blood covers us there is nothing in this world to fear. This is all temporary, our bodies are just for the time being. What matters is our souls and our ticket to spending eternity with the greatest being to ever exist. God. If I can tell you all how he delivered me, I should not be here at all, AT ALL right now. But by his grace he saved me, I left my mistakes in the past, all the pain I caused people God cast it into the sea of forgetfullness. Sheesh! How awesome is that?! He forgives us for our transgressions. Bow wow, no one is perfect doll, no one but when you come to God he says to come as you are. Not to clean yourself and your act up first and then come to Christ/Church.No he wants us to come as we are broken and battered and lay everything down at the alter, at the foot of the cross, at Calvary. And there in that moment is when God reaches out his hands and starts to mold and shape us. He reaches out his hands and starts to repair all that was broken. And let me tell you, the feeling...is like nothing I have ever felt before in my life. When you are faithful to God, when you live a life that is pleasing to him, when you things to Glorify him and all his works, when you show kindness and Gods love unto others....the rewards and the blessings he bestows upon us you can not even begin to imagine. I'm not trying to preach here lol but when I think about the Lord and when I speak about him I can't help it. And I will continue to do so till the day my father calls me home. I will live and die for him. People stay encouraged please, please...especially during these hard times. Continue to believe and pray for ppl we know that need it, ppl you think who may not need it, for our nation.... and pray for the music industry. It has a great influence and impact on our children and youth generation. It breaks my heart to see and hear the things I do. God Bless all of you. God Bless you to bow wow.

mickeec3 said...

I feel you. The only thing I will say is everyone will answer to God for themselves. I say if you dont want to go, that's a personal choice, but don't not go because u feel fake or phoney. One thing about God that is so wonderful is that HE KNOWS EVERY THOUGHT AND INTENT OF YOUR HEART. He wants you to come as you are, not where u desire to be. Never wait to GET YOURSELF TOGETHER. If we could do that there would b no need for him. Take your thoughts, and feelings to him as you are at this very moment. A sinsere heart he won't deny. There's a part of every man that God reserved for himself, and if you don't aknwledge it, you will never be completely satisfied.

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lilnette_09 said...

I see what you mean about it. I've been in church my whole life and I see people like you. It's not wrong to say you not ready for it but your mother is right though when are you going to be ready. No from a church girl who tries to her best I would say listen to GOD and see what he says. Now sometimes you can get GOD confused up with you and yourself or you know the other person. I would say what you can do since you don't want to go to church is watch a thing on tv first and see how you feel about it. There are some church folks who do judge people and that's not right because we aren't the judge God is. That's why people don't go to church now. If you do feel like you want to go to church, go to a church where you have a friend or you know somebody that goes to church. If not then like you said wait until you be like GOD I'm ready to get all the negative things away and off of me. Then once you do that, everything you use to do is going to come back and test you because to see where your faith is, and it is hard to change. People get into this comfortable zone and think it's all right. And it's not. Then when you try to change people be downing you and everything. But you have to push through it. If you don't then you've gone back to what you use to do, and proved everybody that said you couldn't do it right.
Keep Your Head Up Bow. Do the right things in your life. God Bless.
Love ya, Your futher friend
Vanette.

Sonia said...

Bow Wow...dnt stress!!! As long u blv in God nd pray by uself i personally think dat u dnt hav 2 go 2 church all da time(even priests diz days cant b trusted...). Hate iT wen ppl criticize me 4 not goin 2 church(it has been more den a year...) coz i pray at home. U shudnt feel bad.. :( LOVE U SOOOOOO MUCH BOW WOW!!! Keep doin wat u do best!!! U're more den AWESOME!!!! love u LUV U love u!! :D

tiffany said...

BOW...I ADMIRE UR INTEREST in GOD SO MUCH! I NEVER EVEN KNEW THAT U EVEN TALKED/PRAYED 2 GOD. BUT GOING 2 CHURCH WILL HELP YOU GROW INTO A NEW CREATURE..U WILL B MORE NURTURED IN THE WORD. WE TEND 2 BECOME WAT WE ARE AROUND SO IF U ARE IN THE CHURCH EVERY SUNDAY THEN IT WILL DEF HAVE AN INFLUENCE ON UR LIFE N WHO U R AS A PERSON..BOW GOD LOVES U VERY MUCH AND WANT U 2 COME 2 HIM B4 ITS 2 LATE...HELL IS REAL AND ETERNAL..DONT WAIT TIL ITS 2 LATE AND END UP THERE. IF U LOVE GOD...U WILL OBEY HIM...HE SAID WE MUST WAIT TIL MARRIAGE 2 HAVE SEX...NOT MARK UR SKIN..BCUZ UR BODY IS UR TEMPLE..BUT I KNO U DO THESE THINGZ...THOSE TYPES OF BEHAVIORS IZ NOT FROM GOD BUT FROM THE DEVIL..ITS NOT 2 LATE 2 TURN AWAY AND BE FORGIVEN 4 UR SINS AS LONG AS UR ALIVE...REPENT BOW...GOD SAID THAT IF UR NOT FOLLOWING HIM..UR FOLLOWING THE DEVIL...JESUS DIED 4 U...SERVE HIM!..NOT DA DEVIL...THE DEVIL WANTS UR SOUL BUT GOD WANTS IT EVEN MORE...I LOVE U N WILL KEEP U IN MY PRAYERS...UR FAN FROM DAY 1(tiifany)

Queni said...

LIL HOMIE I NEVER GO 2 CHURCH, BUT I KNOW I CAN SAY THAT MY BELIEVE IS 100% STRONGER THEN ALOT OF DOES WHO DO GO 2 CHURCH.

AS LONG AS U BELIEVE AND PRAY
GOD WILL LISTEN AND HELP

614_Rissa_Baby said...

This is really deep!I feel the same way you do. I havent been to church since I was little when the church bus use to come pick up the kids in the neighborhood and until this day I believe i went for the free candy afterwards lol.But I Was little but now that im older I have realized that is not what I was there for and now I am scared to just go back after so long until I feel its time. GOD WILL GUIDE ME BACK!

Black Diamond said...

EVERY SENCE I WAS A LIL GIRL I NEVER LIKED CHURCH AND I ALWAYS HAD AN AKWARD FEELING LIKE SOMETHING JUST IS'NT RIGHT ABOUT IT. I FELT LIKE IT WAS A SCAM TO RIPP OFF THE PEOPLE FOR THEIR HARD EARNED MONEY. AND WHAT DO YOU KNOW I WAS RIGHT!!RELIGION IS THE BIGGEST SCAM OF ALL SCAMS!! SO MANY HAVE HEALED AND KILLED AND BEEN DISCRIMINATED AGAINST ALL IN THE NAME OF "GOD". WHOM I FEEL HAS BEEN MISREPRESENTED BY MAN.

I DONT BELIEVE IN RELIGION BECAUSE IT SEPERATES PEOPLE.THE TEMPLE OF THE CREATOR WAS NEVER INTINDED TO BE IN A BUILDING THAT WE CALL A CHURCH FOR THE TEMPLE OF THE CREATOR LIVES INSIDE OF US ALL, ALL OF HIS/HER CREATIONS.

YOU CANT SEARCH OUT SIDE YOUR SELF FOR SOMETHING THAT ALREADY LIVES INSIDE OF YOU.YOUR THE ONLY ONE WHO HAVE THE POWER TO CHANGE YOU, NO ONE ELSE. NOT EVEN THE CREATOR THATS WHY HE/SHE GAVE US FREE WILL. TO MAKE OUR OWN CHOICES IN LIFE WE EITHER LEARN FROM THEM OR WE DONT.AND ALWAYS REMEMBER WHAT GOES AROUND COMES RIGHT BACK AROUND "KARMA" ALWAYS COMES BACK TO YOU IN SOME FORM.

AND I DONT THINK THE CREATOR JUDGES HIS/HER CREATIONS. I THINK WE STAND BEFORE HIM/HER AND JUDGE OUR SELVES. AND IF WE DONT GET IT RIGHT IN THIS LIFE, WE GET REINCARNATED AND TRY IT AGAIN IN ANOTHER LIFE.BECAUSE REALLY AND TRUELY THEIR IS NO SUCH THANG AS DEATH BECAUSE THE SOUL LIVES ON 4 EVER.

WE LIVING IN A COLD COLD WORLD FILLED WITH FAKES PHONEYS AND GREAT PRETENDERS IN A PRETEND WORLD. NOTHING IS NEVER WHAT IT SEEMS ARE APPEAR TO BE. CAUSE REALLY THE BEST THINGS INLIFE IS UNSCENE, UNEXPLAINABLE AND PRICELESS.LIFE IS BUT A FEELING "WISDOM-WHEN SHE SPEAKS LISTEN" AN EVERLASTING SLOW DANCE. YOU EITHER ELEVATE YOUR SELF TO DIFFERENT LEVELS AS YOU PROGRESS IN LIFE AND THIS COMES WITH "KNOWING THY SELF" OR YOU DECLINATE AND LOOSE YOURSELF IN THIS PRETEND WORLD. ME I WILL FOR EVER BE ELEVATED, CAUSE UNLIKE MOST I DONT WEAR A MASK, I SHOW MY FACE BECAUSE I'M NOT AFRAID TO BE ME....BOW WOW ARE YOU AFRAID TO BE YOU,THE REAL YOU?TAKE OFF THAT MASK.I WANNA SEE YOUR FACE.INTRODUCE THE WORLD TO "SHAD MOSS".

Chocolate Eclair said...

Wow. I love that you opened up to your fans this way. I know exactly how you feel Shad. I am going through this now although I do attend church. But I feel like how can I just have been baptized a year ago and now it seems like I am going back to the old me and maybe even worse. I have my moments when I doubt God and I am angry with him but at the end of the day I still know and understand that He is the One that keeps me strong and provides and everlasting love, although I feel it at times undetected, that is unlike any. You seem to be very wise and the important thing is that you realize there is a need for a change and that is just the first step, but it's all a process. I wish you all the luck Mr. Moss and pray and hope all works out for you. You are a very fortunate person to have the power to change many lives due to your status in society. You're recognized world wide and people adore you. Yea I can't lie you have some haters but those obstacles and stumbling blocks in life will make you stronger and wiser as you learn to overcome them. Just know that you are not alone and many feel the same way you do. I love that you have such a great relationship with your mother. That is very important as well. You will need her as you grow and learn as a Christian. Well I hate to have rambled on so. But hey you can follow me on twitter @clayreyes. Or just shoot me an email thechocolateeclair@gmail.com

With all the Love and Blessings,
Claire Reyes

Mykey Fresh said...

All I'm gonna say is this: you dont get ready to go to church, you go to church to get ready!

pearsonevelyn24 said...

In my opinion life is all about growing as a person (mentally), so if ur sitting there comfortably and not challenging urself or taking the next step forward, wat r u gaining? wat r u learning? nd no one is perfect remember dat, nd it doesnt make u a hypocrite is makes u a human being.maybe u are afraid of change, every1 is if its out of our comfort zone where u feel safe and happy with ur xbox 4 example, but take the next step forward. nd its NEVER too l8, listen 2 ur mum she loves u nd always wants the best for u (u know dat :)), mybe go with her one day nd c wat u feel? love you nd wish u the best MUAH!!

Jaisie said...

I know alot of people on here will tell yo that not going to church is okay, and if your truly not ready that is understandable. But one thing i wanted to mention and Im not sure if anyone else already told you, but it says in Hebrews 10:25 to "forsake not the assembly of believers". Meaning that we should go to church, not just cause it's a place to pray and repent, but because its a place to grow in the word. I think it's not fair for anyone to ever feel like they can't go to church because they are still sinning, everyone should feel welcomed and should go regradless. You can't change outside of the chruch, you said you have not been in 3/4 years, has anything changed? Don't be decieved and think that just talking to God will get you into heaven, thats a start but a real relationship includes attending church so that you can grow in the word of God and Learn more about how to handle the struggles of life (sin). I would encourage you to just go and not worry about if you sin that very afternoon, God knows that your intentions, and it starts with trying. I hope you make it out one day or atleast start with reading the bible daily. Every little bit helps. God bless you and I will keep you in my prayers.

LoveMissNisey said...

I remember having these same sentiments. There was a disconnect between the church and I and therefore myself and God because of hypocrisy. I could not stand hypocrites, and I felt like if I was not giving my all to God, then why waste His time and/or misrepresent Him. However, what I now realize is Jesus understands our weaknesses and our sin. He wants to help us change, face that fear of becoming the man/woman of God we were created to be. The last thing we should do is block Him out or minimize fellowship with Him and our brothers and sisters in Christ while we're in sin or experiencing temptations to sin. He understands and wants to help; HE LOVES US ALL, FLAWS AND ALL. I encourage you to step out on faith to increase your walk with God, don't allow Satan to hold you back any longer!God Bless:)

Adam said...

here in the bahamas i find it hard to go to church because i like to have fun, as in going dancing, but the people in church look at you diffrent if you share both the lives of religion and having fun. The reason why i dont see a problem in not always going to church is because me and god have a relationship together, and i am not going to let people to look down upon me and ruin my relationship with god. I prefer going swimming or anything than going to church, but the reason for this is because any day at any time and even at any place, i know that i can just take 20-30 minute out of my time and just have a bible reading and a little private talk and prayer between me and god, but hey its cool to hear that its not only me, and glad to hear it from a celebrity.

FSAS_Ty said...

I haven't been to church in that long and I'm not even a star. I'm not religious but I'm spirtual and I feel that you don't have to attend church to be with the Lord. Long as you pray every morning and thank him for waking you up, and study some of his words (I can't say from the bible because I feel as if it was made up by other people), but for what you believe in him.

Patricia said...

i love the fact that you were honest and that you even spoke about this topic, many would be afraid too. i love that your so down to earth. and when the time comes you will make it to church just keep praying and gving him thanks for all that he (God) has done for you.

Theresa said...

Maybe I can help you understand Christianity love. Most believers are extremely judgemental (yet they are committing a sin doing so)... The bible says your body is the temple of God and that God is always with you even in your wrongs. You may not be ready for what they call the house of the Lord (church). But if that is the case take one Sunday away from your homies to connect with him and only him. As far as being scard love, don't be, he is your guiding light. The core of Christianity is LOVE! Forgiving and sincere LOVE!

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